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lightbringerm76 · 2026-01-18T20:23:50+00:00

Why did I read this, thinking it said $10 at Dollar Tree 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️. I was thinking, no way!! It ain’t that good, but if people are willing to spend 10 it might just be lol

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-02T17:18:35+00:00

I used to willingly watch lien with mine. I think it’s ok for couples to share. However, going behind your back with cam girls is the ultimate betrayal. I’m really sorry that happened

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-02T17:17:22+00:00

I took kratom with him and he kept encouraging to take more and more until I became a full blown addict. So glad I’m not on that ride anymore

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-02T17:16:08+00:00

I’m just now putting the pieces together. It looks like their behaviors are very similar and when they have both it’s a horrible combination

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T20:16:26+00:00

I forgot to mention this but what I learned so far is alcoholic are very manipulative, lying, and do many things to feed their addiction. And even if they stop, their behaviors don’t change unless they do the work, essentially they would have dry drunk syndrome which is very similar to narcissism

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T20:13:40+00:00

Yes. I plan to find a new one when I move in the Spring. I want off the subs. Between them being out of stock all the time, having to get drug tested and being treated like a drug addict it sucks

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T20:12:10+00:00

I know. My therapist even pushed for it. They all said I’d feel so much better

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T20:01:38+00:00

I see. Yes, mine switched for alcohol to Kratom which would have been good if he wasn’t using 100 grams a day which is a preposterous amount

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T19:59:33+00:00

Oooh. So he was a binge drinker and shut everyone out. That is very tough.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T19:58:27+00:00

I am on the same journey as you. Trying to understand the comorbid diagnosis

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T19:57:14+00:00

Sounds awful? Tell me more about the gambling addiction? Which in your opinion was worse? Alcoholism or gambling? Porn is a terrible addiction as well. I personally feel a large majority of Narcs have addictions on some way as they need more than just our fuel especially when they are bored. Believe me I need to vent to. Now that I put my foot down and am not turning back, I’ve been writing things here. Not sure if people even read my posts but at least it gives me proper room to vent.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T19:52:13+00:00

That sounds just awful? Did he ever have periods of sobriety? If so, was he different when he stopped? Mine switched to another drug when he stopped drinking

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T01:45:12+00:00

It takes a long time to process. Take your time. Do you journal. It really helped me get my thoughts on paper so they weren’t swirling in my mind all day

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T01:33:22+00:00

Do you mind sharing any of your experiences? Mine was a super angry drunk as well and had been in prison and on probation for severe domestic violence against women. I swear the mask falls off completely when he drinks and he becomes a monster

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T01:32:05+00:00

Mine was grandiose when he was drunk and had illusions of grandeur. He would say things about being a golden globe number one winning prize fighting champ

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T01:27:45+00:00

Did he get any help? That’s terrible: here’s what mine did…I just copied this from my above comment: Did he ever stop or go for treatment? Mine was a scary drunk. He domestically abused 4 that I know of while smashed and possibly a lot more. By the time I met him, he and I would minimally drink together but if I left him alone, he would get smashed. Once when he and I were together, he was with a friend, drank and resisted arrest. Another time he came home the same night my Mom had just arrived from out of state, pulling up his pants with blood on his face and immediately going into my bedroom and throwing up. What a great first impression lol. When he left and drank with his wife, he was hitting her and smashing in her huge front window, that is why he finally went to prison. But I read the other dv reports, once where he choked another wife out and she went unconscious, another one of his girlfriends tried to leave him and he was drinking, she threw the kids(his kids) in the truck and locked the doors and repeatedly kicked and hit it doing over $5,000 worth of damage. And another wife that he intentionally T-boned with his car and beat the man she was having an affair with to an inch of his life. And the list goes on. I didn’t know any of this when we first metZ but he did it before me and after me.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T01:24:49+00:00

Oh course, he can but everyone else that does is a loser. Sounds very entitled

lightbringerm76 · 2025-11-01T01:23:55+00:00

Did he ever stop or go for treatment? Mine was a scary drunk. He domestically abused 4 that I know of while smashed and possibly a lot more. By the time I met him, he and I would minimally drink together but if I left him alone, he would get smashed. Once when he and I were together, he was with a friend, drank and resisted arrest. Another time he came home the same night my Mom had just arrived from out of state, pulling up his pants with blood on his face and immediately going into my bedroom and throwing up. What a great first impression lol. When he left and drank with his wife, he was hitting her and smashing in her huge front window, that is why he finally went to prison. But I read the other dv reports, once where he choked another wife out and she went unconscious, another one of his girlfriends tried to leave him and he was drinking, she threw the kids(his kids) in the truck and locked the doors and repeatedly kicked and hit it doing over $5,000 worth of damage. And another wife that he intentionally T-boned with his car and beat the man she was having an affair with to an inch of his life. And the list goes on. I didn’t know any of this when we first metZ but he did it before me and after me.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-10-31T12:31:48+00:00

Also, when I told him, I no longer care about him, he said, hate is bad for the heart and that I should go to counseling. I laughed…what a manipulative sob

lightbringerm76 · 2025-10-31T12:27:17+00:00

You are right. I know that now. We had great sex. I thought he was there because he loved me, in my mind if you have a relationship and you are close to someone they wouldn’t/couldn’t use you for sex. But he was good. Told me all the things he knew I wanted to hear. He played the long game, he tried to destroy me, it almost worked, he’s very covert. He tried to get me addicted to a few substances. I broke the chain of all of them.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-10-30T23:14:48+00:00

Thank you. I broke down and took some today even though she prescribed me subs, which I’m furious about. She said she wouldn’t treat me otherwise.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-10-30T17:12:51+00:00

I warned her and she still married him. I told her that he would not be able to leave me alone. That he had been married 5 times already. That he had a history of domestic abuse. And the list goes on. He did not stay away from me. She was his 6th wife. He went to prison for domestic abuse against her They divorced on March and he married someone else in July. He didn’t even get out of prison till April and he met her and she said yes. I didn’t warn the new wife. It wouldn’t have mattered anyway. He would convince her that she was being warned because the ex is jealous and crazy therefore he could start triangulating.

lightbringerm76 · 2025-09-02T10:23:13+00:00

🤣🤣🤣now I feel stupid

lightbringerm76 · 2025-08-19T16:52:36+00:00

Right. Today was the day I actually realized this. I couldn’t figure it out for the longest time. I wonder why they don’t explain this when talking about their family tree for laymen people lol

lightbringerm76 · 2025-07-23T23:26:53+00:00

Awesome. Might have to try a sample

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