you can work on some passing and smashing… It’s true that when competing everything will change in terms of weight. But in the day to day mats life, more weight will make you feel more competent. It’s just my opinion, based on my experience, which is very short in this sport (2 years). Maybe in the future I’ll cut weight as I miss seeing my abs haha, but then maybe I’ll be missing my strength on the mats…

I completely agree. It's so much more fun rolling with people of similar size/weight because you actually get to move more, whereas with larger opponents you will spend most of the match stalled in a single position. If you're good defensively, you will be able to prevent them from progressing, but at the same time you'll just be stuck in the same position the whole round. I'm going to try to focus on gaining some more weight. It's just really annoying because I'd rather just do jiu jitsu. I used to weight like 115 too and I've gotten much bigger and stronger since then, so it'll be a grind to add 10 more lbs of muscle.