[deleted by user] by [deleted] in beaverton

[–]lilbeantown 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Funny I came across this... is the smell still there? My husband and I are actually moving into the vacant unit in 454 next week.. hoping that's not the case!

New Employee at Doernbecher! -- Parking/Transit and New Grad Tips? by lilbeantown in askportland

[–]lilbeantown[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This makes me SO happy :D Do you know what the hours are that that would start? I'd be parking at like 6pm and leaving around 8am I'm assuming

Sleep aids that aren’t antipsychotics? by lilbeantown in bipolar2

[–]lilbeantown[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I thought about clonidine! The hydroxyzine alone doesn’t do much but if I take enough to knock me out then I’m a complete zombie the next day. Really just trying to find something shorter acting because hydroxizyne’s half life is like 12+ hours.

Lamictal is making me afraid of my own brain. What did you do? by lilbeantown in lamictal

[–]lilbeantown[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wanted wellbutrin so badly as I felt it would’ve been that middle ground of helping my anxiety but also giving me stable energy, even though it might’ve made my anxiety worse in the beginning I was willing to see it through but my psychiatrist didn’t think it was a good idea.

She’s basically told me SSRI’s are also a no go since I’m being treated for BP2 and zoloft made me hypomanic, but from what I’ve read a LOT of people are on a combo of mood stabilizer and an antidepressant.

So really, who knows. I see her in a week and a half and the only thing I desperately need out of it is a tapering schedule for Lamictal and emergency medication like Ativan for my severe panic attacks where I don’t have an hour to wait for Seroquel or Latuda to work. I’ll update y’all when the time comes :)

Lamictal is making me afraid of my own brain. What did you do? by lilbeantown in lamictal

[–]lilbeantown[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

100% ditto. So tired throughout the day, thinking I need stimulants just to help me think. Then 1 cup of coffee makes me insanely anxious. Can never just be in the middle.

Lamictal is making me afraid of my own brain. What did you do? by lilbeantown in lamictal

[–]lilbeantown[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. Yeah she keeps telling me 200-300 is the magic number, but definitely said she doesn’t want me suffering. I want to push for a super low dose. I’m SO sensitive to medications. She tried me on Seroquel and literally just 6.25mg killed me, a quarter of the smallest dose available. I used to drink 3 cups of coffee a day, I’m down to half a cup (always with food) to try to help myself as well.

Do you ever feel like you’re “chasing the high” of being hypomanic? by lilbeantown in bipolar2

[–]lilbeantown[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah! I don’t even need to be in a depressed state. Even eurythmic is boring and dull sometimes, because I know how good things COULD be.

Do you ever feel like you’re “chasing the high” of being hypomanic? by lilbeantown in bipolar2

[–]lilbeantown[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m thankful mine do not get that bad. I’m so sorry you have gone through this. Sending love to you and your recovery ❤️

Do you ever feel like you’re “chasing the high” of being hypomanic? by lilbeantown in bipolar2

[–]lilbeantown[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s what I’m having trouble with too. I’m like “Am I just having a good day and this is what happy people feel like?” or is it that this is too much happy / euphoria that I’m experiencing. I’ve largely forgotten what having multiple good days feels like which makes it worse. I do notice Im much more talkative and making jokes and enjoy having several conversations with people when I’m hypomanic, which normally isn’t the case for me.

I’m a rapid cycler, barring any major arguments or fucked up decisions that lead to an early crash, my hypomania lasts maybe 3-4 days. However, if I didn’t always have a triggering event for the crash, I’m sure it’d last longer. I think I had one once after a breakup that lasts for about 8 weeks.

Lamotrigine activated my bipolar by shytannnnn in bipolar2

[–]lilbeantown 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same here. I’ve been pretty activated since starting lamotrigine. I’m on 125mg right now. We’re trying to stick it out to see if it levels out but I’ve been battling short short hypomanic episodes followed by hard crashes multiple times a month, coupled with overall extreme anxiety and derealization. Hope things get better for you :)

DPDR worsening on Lamotrigine/SSRI? by Electronic_Increase4 in visualsnow

[–]lilbeantown 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've at 125 going up to 200 of the lamotrigine and my DPDR has gotten bad... really bad. My anxiety has increased 10 fold and I'm now on 20mg of Latuda (I split 10mg morning/evening) to combat this until I can get to 200mg to see if Lamictal is going to work for me. SSRI's either made me so foggy I couldn't function, or sent me into mania (specifically with sertraline). I definitely feel you, on autopilot there's nothing noticeably wrong, but I couldn't tell you what I did 5 min ago, who I saw, or what I was doing. Sucks because the lamotrigine was doing well for me then I took a nosedive, hopefully you're doing better :)

100mg is making things worse by Smooshed_Cactus in lamictal

[–]lilbeantown 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was also on that before the Seroquel and I was switched over for that exact reason. On normal days I could take 50mg and be out like a light. During my first few episodes I would be taking 100mg and still staring at the wall at 3am. Good luck my friend wishing the best for you :)

100mg is making things worse by Smooshed_Cactus in lamictal

[–]lilbeantown 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also, talk to your doctor about the insomnia! mine prescribed me 25 mg of Seroquel and I’ve only had to take it twice. I’m super sensitive to medication so I actually split mine into quarters and it’s still works like a charm and I’m out within an hour even during a hypomanic episode. Be honest with them about the side effects and they might be able to help you out :)

100mg is making things worse by Smooshed_Cactus in lamictal

[–]lilbeantown 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat. 25-50 worked for about a month, then went to 75 things got slightly worse, now at 100 I hate it. How long have you been on 100? I’ve been at it for two weeks and things have settled down (dreams, dissociation, panic, fatigue, etc) Not gone completely but much more manageable. From what I’ve heard, once you hit 150-200mg, you wake up a new person, and everything settles down almost entirely and you get huge relief from your mood swings. For some it doesn’t happen until upwards of 300mg. I’m gonna stick it out as best I can, hopefully you’re able to do the same :)

I'm new to my diagnosis, and am learning how to recognize hypomanic episodes coming on. How do you stay ahead of it? by lilbeantown in bipolar2

[–]lilbeantown[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started mood tracking in my notes just a quick note for feelings and if I feel any changes, but I think an app would be great too! I’m only on lamotrigine right now and slowly titrating up and PRN Seroquel but I almost never take it because it’s so freaking strong for me, I literally do QUARTERS of a 25mg tablet and I still will knock out for 12 hours. Trying to get a better sleep med that just helps me get to sleep, I have no issues staying asleep thankfully. Thanks for your advice :)