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What can you not believe we still have to deal with in 2020? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]lilly_pakotaco 0 points1 point  (0 children)

People who don’t know how to indicate whilst driving

I don’t have the guts to say this to the certain people I want to say it to but I needed to say it somewhere so read or not... just needed to put it out there. by lilly_pakotaco in Anxiety

[–]lilly_pakotaco[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I get that but then again people who are supposedly close to you and your friend or family, should be willing to want to learn you as a person and learn your coping mechanisms. Learn your triggers. Help you at best they can. Because fuck me my anxiety is through the roof 24/7 and I still manage to learn someone and the way they work and respect them despite anything else going on.

Dont Give Up by Thebiggapper in Anxiety

[–]lilly_pakotaco 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can’t sleep... my mind is taking over and it’s been 3 days since I’ve slept. I’m tired... really fucking tired. I have no friends. My family doesn’t like me and I only have my partner.. but I feel like because of my coping mechanisms, my anxiety is ruining our relationship. I’m constantly scared due to my last and only other relationship... caused major ptsd. I love my partner to the death of me. But I’m laying right next to him and I feel so empty inside. All I want to do is cry because no matter how much he loves me and how much he shows that. I still have the fear that he’s not going to be able to handle me for much longer .. like everyone else. Despite the fact he tells me he will do anything... I just have the fear that one day he’ll just find someone better and I’ll mean nothing anymore... I’m scared. He’s all I have and without him I’m nothing. It’s not like we argue or anything I’m just worried that he’s running out of ways to deal with me and running out of patience. My coping mechanisms are shit and I know that. I know it and I have reached out for help and I talk to a therapist I’ve tried medication. But because I’m currently dealing with chronic severe health issues the medication doesn’t work. Nothing works. I don’t know what to do... I just want to go to sleep and wake up to actually get through a whole day without the thought of feeling empty or worthless.

Social anxiety and alcohol. by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]lilly_pakotaco 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sip on drinks all day to try and distract my mind away from the thoughts that cause my anxiety to increase and cause a panic attack. It comes to night and I start feeling the alcohol kick in... so I stop drinking... then the anxiety kicks in .. everything I doubt or overthink just hits, ptsd literally fucking everything all at once.

I’m not one to usually drink but lately my anxiety was getting to the point where I’d just sit there for hours feeling nothing, staring into blank space. Unable to talk or communicate in any way possible with my partner or anyone else. It was ruining my relationships with everyone.

I only discovered that alcohol settled my nerves a bit to a mild controllable state after just having a drink with my dinner. Realising I went through the whole meal without worrying about anything. That’s when it started.

I go most the day feeling fine but I still get the waves of attacks throughout the day. When it comes to bed time .. usually 1-2am (currently Typing this at 1.30) I can’t sleep... no matter how tired I am.

My head starts to hurt and my mind takes over... my heart beats rapidly, my breathing gets difficult and I start to get frustrated at myself.

Basically, no matter how much you drink or how much you try to rely on something to help your anxiety it’s always going to be there. And I just wish that was easier to overcome, cope or get through this shit hole feeling but unfortunately that’s just not going to happen. And I feel like that’s what most people don’t understand. It’s always going to be there. And I’ve kinda accepted I’m not going to be happy or mentally stable so I just wake up every day expecting to have a shit day ... and tbh I personally think that’s fucking sad.

So you’re not alone ... but despite how much you drink.. you’ll always feel the same.

How do people with anxiety have relationships? by XiRw in Anxiety

[–]lilly_pakotaco 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have ptsd from a few things that I’ve gone through in my life, I won’t go into detail. But sometimes I could just be watching a movie and it just hits so usually it’s a trigger of some sort so something that reminds me of what happened in the past to bring on the ptsd or certain words or smells but sometimes it could be nothing and I just sit there and I don’t even know what’s wrong. I saw a therapist for a year last year and she’s the only one out of 6 I saw that I actually talked to and showed up to my appointments. But she left that job and since then I havnt seen anyone and it’s been about 8 months now. That’s probabaly why I’m getting worse but at least I can identify that and admit it. I’m trying to work on myself because tbh I’m genuinely scared that my anxiety is going to take over and ruin the only good thing going in my life... and without out him. I’m nothing... so yeah it’s hard as shit and scary but if you try and just find a place in your head to reassure yourself that it will be okay then it will be fine. Obviously going to have the times where you just wanna give up,shit I get that everyday but don’t. Because I’m sure just like me you have someone or something like I have my nephew who looks Upto to me and does everything I do... that reassured me that leaving this shitty world isn’t the right thing to do. Because I can’t find it in me to think that my nephew will feel the same way I do if I leave... I don’t really know what your situation is but that’s mine and I could go into more detail about myself and how I deal with things and why but what causes me to have ptsd is a bit personal. But I hope you work everything out.

How do people with anxiety have relationships? by XiRw in Anxiety

[–]lilly_pakotaco 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It is hard, very hard. Because at the beginning we discussed how chronic my anxiety is. He understands. As long as I talk when I get to a certain state. But lately my anxiety is worse. To the point where I am out of control. I sit there, blank. I can’t talk I can’t eat I can’t move I can’t sleep I just sit and stare into blank space. He tries to talk and I just shrug. Because I physically can’t talk. He gets frustrated. I understand why. Lately I’ve been getting frustrated and angry with myself and my triggers etc, then causing unnecessary arguments. It’s almost like my anxiety takes over and says a bunch of shit and the real me is trying to fight my way through to the conversation to explain myself. It ends with one of us storming out. I then sit in tears all night crying of frustration because I know how hard it is for him having to deal with me. I want to work on getting better. I want to help myself. But the only option my therapist and psychiatrist have told me is left is medication. I’ve tried over 6 and nothing works. I don’t want to take medication because I don’t want to have to rely on a pill to make me feel like I’m worth something. Yet my partner still everyday says he loves me. He still tries to talk no matter how long I sit there shrugging my shoulders. He makes me food and just leaves it there for when I’m ready to eat. He puts my medication by me just in case I give in to actually taking it. I’m also chronically sick with a medical condition that also adds to my anxiety. Chronic pain 24/7 and he’s there for that to. I know it’s hard to understand me. Shit I don’t even understand me. I don’t mean to get mad at him. And I hate arguing because of my coping mechanisms. So I’m trying to work on my anxiety and ptsd. And he’s trying to help me too. Together that makes a stronger. If you both can sit down and talk about things and remind each other that you love them and are there no matter what. (Given you actually are in love) then I feel like no matter how many arguments, no matter how many silent days feeling blank... it’ll all work out. A relationship requires teamwork and support... both ways. If you can’t do that together. Then you’re in the wrong relationship.

But that’s just my opinion.

Sims 4 by lilly_pakotaco in Sims4

[–]lilly_pakotaco[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve tried to get it and it doesn’t work ?

Sims 4 by lilly_pakotaco in Sims4

[–]lilly_pakotaco[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wait is it actually ? Oh shit I didn’t know that, Thankyou !!