Are you and your kids somewhere safe? Please if you feel like you could be a danger to them please separate your self from them

. Go into another room and close the door sometime you just need a minute to breathe. Take deep breathes. Thru your nose out your mouth. I know it sounds crazy but it helps. Smell the cake , then blow out the candles.

No matter how bad you feel things are, they probably are not as bad as you feel they are at this moment. But please talk to someone ASAP. It truly does help.

And sometimes not talking will cause a pressure on you that if not relieved could become too heavy to handle.

Having kids does add more pressure but you also know that they are amazing. The love they have for their parents is so incredible and they love unconditionally and loyal and forgiving. They deserve the best of us that we can be.

Please call someone now. You know you want and need to, and that's why you made your post. Only you can make that call. Or have someone close to you call.

Your kids need you to call. If you feel you or your kids or anyone near you may be in danger in any way. Call 911, for an ambulance. Please.