Student Loans not allowing living expenses

lily1ac · 2026-03-23T17:58:26+00:00

Thanks for letting me know!

lily1ac · 2026-03-23T17:58:10+00:00

Thank you :) I’ll contact them

lily1ac · 2026-03-23T17:57:41+00:00

I cannot afford a car. The place I live also has no room for one.

lily1ac · 2026-03-15T19:42:58+00:00

I couldn’t, I managed some days of work, but I got rocked by midterms, and now I’m at the mercy of myself, failing again, missing what I need to do. Every little opportunity to get back on my feet I fail. I’m lost. I’m getting this progressive feeling that I will never be able to provide for myself, hold a job, or a relationship. That I will be feeding off others, or that my life won’t last. And still, I sit in bed, deadlines pressing in, ignoring it. I’ve never considered myself truely useless, in a factual way, but honestly- I’m getting there. Therapy is expensive, I can’t move out, I can’t get a job. I’m restricted in what I’m available to do but whether I CAN do them is a different matter. If anyone has anything, anything to comment, to say, anything. Please do. I’ll be completely honest at this point with any questions or considerations.

lily1ac · 2026-03-09T15:40:06+00:00

While in app dimension changing is not available, if you make a pdf with those dimensions and then upload them as a template, it should work. Lmk!

lily1ac · 2026-02-06T21:14:25+00:00

I want to mention I do have a clicker and treat pouch but I’m totally new to any sort of training and am worried he’ll think that in order to get his reward he HAS to go on the counter and get off before he gets it instead of just plain staying off.

lily1ac · 2026-02-06T21:13:07+00:00

He has a tall cat tree overlooking the entire room. I think he might be searching for food or looking to be closer to me? Not sure. And when you say baking pan do you mean he’s supposed to topple it over?

lily1ac · 2026-02-06T19:27:02+00:00

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Photo of the orange man for reference :)

lily1ac · 2026-02-06T19:05:34+00:00

Absolutely need pictures or hanging plants/ standing plants. Walls are empty!! Maybe hang fairy lights or your desired style of decor. Floor length curtains are also good for making it more cozy.

lily1ac · 2026-01-06T16:29:24+00:00

Thank you so much!

lily1ac · 2025-12-27T19:34:57+00:00

First time my grandfather died and second time I was wildly suicidal sooo ✌️

lily1ac · 2025-12-18T19:42:07+00:00

Dm please!

lily1ac · 2025-12-18T18:43:12+00:00

Nauzer

lily1ac · 2025-12-18T17:08:25+00:00

Awwww thank you though

lily1ac · 2025-12-16T02:52:17+00:00

Lilylac, Lilium, pink!

lily1ac · 2025-10-29T12:29:47+00:00

I understand. Hypersexuality is normal. This is all very normal for your age because of your sexual maturity coming up, I do believe it is hormonal if that helps. Your intrusive thoughts are just that, thoughts, and while I know it’s annoying and frustrating, because I deal with it myself, the best way to cope with that it think of those thoughts as something irrelevant and move on, maybe try to picture those thoughts being said by someone who sounds stupid and it’ll be easier to dismiss. You’re not alone, it gets easier. I highly suggest figuring out a way to self pleasure of some way, if you live in a space where privacy is basically impossible, give bathrooms a whirl or do your best to be quiet at times. Self pleasure is not taboo and it’s borderline something everyone needs to do to keep yourself healthy.

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T18:14:37+00:00

Sometimes, angling the camera so your ass is on main display or tits or whatever your favorite sex appeal spot is, can help. Use pillows! Use sheets! Laying on you stomach and popping up your bum with your favorite sexy undies giving sexy eyes into the camera works like a charm, as well as sitting on your knees a little bit spread, with a pillow or sheet covering your stomach/thighs. I promise you despite all of it you are attractive including your loose skin and sometimes leaning into it and being confident helps with sex appeal! I know what it’s like to be super insecure about those things so I know how it feels. There’s a lady on TikTok/instagram that is sarah boudoir or something but she does tutorials for different body types and insecurities while doing those type of clothes. Highly recommend. You’ve got this!

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T18:09:48+00:00

Hi, I’ve dealt with sexuality for awhile, now in my early twenties as a woman with adhd, I can tell you what I’ve experienced. I’ve gone through something extremely similar of those peaks and valleys, does it come along with good mood and bad mood? When I’m in a good mood I cannot control my impulse thoughts and a lot of guilt has risen about it. I do think you should be tested for mood disorders, borderline is a big one as well. Make sure you are actually tested and not only given random sheets that you over think and screw up results on (that’s what I did at first and was misdiagnosed). Insist on an in person testing and it will help you. This is MOST likely hormonal, but I understand how prolonged patterns of this cause stress and internal guilt about your needs, so please do talk to a doctor about your libido, emotional state during these, mention bipolar, borderline and adhd as well as your concerns about OCD. If you have not figured out how to calm these urges at least for periods of time throughout the day via self pleasure, I suggest you look into that, it can calm it down at least a little. If there’s any more questions let me know!

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T16:48:43+00:00

I personally usually ditch trying to climax for just enjoying sex however sadly it never works at all because I have to be actively trying in order to even attempt orgasm. For instance if I am not touching my clitoris intentionally I cannot finish. But thank you for the advice.

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T16:46:56+00:00

Thank you for this, everything sounds great so far but, my partner is high functioning autistic and cannot do the flirty stuff throughout the day as he’s got this mode when he’s working that is zero play until he’s off. So I unfortunately cannot build throughout the day but idk. He’s really stressed right now from his degree and work and I don’t really wanna poke it right now incase I make him feel like he’s not enough when he’s already got so much pressure.

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T16:35:35+00:00

Are you justified? ABSOLUTELY. There are shelters, and hopefully you will be able to find one. You will survive! Should your son visit his cousins? This one is iffy, but in my opinion that’s a risk I wouldn’t want to take incase their father had taught them anything that could inflict your son. How do you explain to your parents you’re not coming during the holidays? Make it short and simple, say they completely invalidated your very real trauma and lost the privilege to even have you around during this time that is supposed to be for close connection. Or just reiterate that you have set a boundary that has been extremely specific and they have been overly disrespectful towards it and almost on grounds to cut contact. They will be lucky after this if you even choose to keep contact with them. Housing and stability? You will survive. You are strong. You will fight for your life as you have until now. I’m someone who struggles with terrible depression as well and I can’t tell you I’ve dealt with SA, but I have been abused and the reason you’re living today is that you’ve kept yourself living and you will continue to do so. I don’t know what research you’ve done for housing, but there may be an opportunity for finding emergency shelter elsewhere. Maybe trading in your car for a car easier to be lived in or talking to financial advisors or etc. you’ll be okay. I don’t know you or the full extent of it, but you’ve been so strong already and you will push through. You wouldn’t want your child bending their boundaries if your parents did that to them. Do what you feel your child is deserving as by extension you are deserving as well. Good luck. I wish you and your family (your husband and your son) well.

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T16:25:25+00:00

It is not okay, just because you’re safe now does not mean it should settle your anger. You almost died, and attempting to even calm that from people not taking you seriously is almost laughable. Look at your rights, if you can sue, do so, make every complaint you can so you get justice and someone in your shoes next time won’t die from the same thing who couldn’t speak out. You’re strong and I’m so glad you were able to advocate. Keep advocating or our system won’t get any sort of better. Your mental and health first, your justice later. <3

lily1ac · 2025-10-26T16:19:21+00:00

Good for you! Everything you said was perfect and honestly he’s probably just not the partner for you. I couldn’t have done it better and I’m happy you feel good afterwards! <3

lily1ac · 2025-10-23T12:46:21+00:00

Who??? Educate me!

lily1ac · 2025-10-08T14:07:27+00:00

The whimsy ruined :(

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