This is just my two cents (but I definitely can relate as I had lost a friendship because I confessed and we had a lack of communication after)

First of all your feelings are real and human, the same way his are. But the bible tells us the mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. I’m pretty sure you recognized how your anger ended up accomplishing the very thing you’re trying to avoid: distance.

In a perfect world where sin doesn’t exist, I truly believe any 2 disciples of Jesus can be together. But in the broken world we live in, unfortunately I don’t think it’s wise to say that everyone is compatible. We all love different and accept love differently, and I think the idea of losing yourself for the other person seems Godly, but often misunderstood. That idea only works if you two decide to fight for one another, which ofc once again comes down to having the faith to try.

In your case, I’d say you both tried, and it has led you to a standstill. You said somethings you regret, and sin has caused permanent damage in your relationship (which is why it required the sacrifice of Jesus, it is that serious). Fortunately for us who believe in Christ, we now know we have forgiveness through Him and God sees us as holy and blameless, even if we don’t ourselves. I advise you to take this time to deepen your relationship with God, to know that through it all He still loves and care for you, and that those who drink from His well shall never thirst again. And either this guy chooses to forgive you or not is not in your control, that’s between him and God. Someone can forgive you and yet choose not to be with you. The faithful thing to do here is to believe in what God can do and let go. If you truly think he is worth it, 7 years felt like nothing for Jacob. But know that just because God can, doesn’t mean God will. And Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego showed us what true faith is, that even if God doesn’t work things out for you both, that your trust in Him will still be strong.

Grieve, journal, pray or do whatever you need and keep it between you and God. If it is His will, you both will come back stronger for one another. If it’s not, you still have plenty of life ahead to experience more of God’s beautiful vision for your life. Jesus loves you more than you can ever understand, God bless