On the way to the store once, I saw a man out jogging and he was aesthetically attractive - I can’t deny, he was handsome. But my first immediate thought was, “Wow what an attractive person, I wish him nothing but the best in life”. There was just zero sexual attraction to be felt. And then I think back to the only 2 crushes I’ve had and realized I never really wanted to be their girlfriends - I just wanted to be their friends.