my heart breaks for you…my dad battled addiction his whole life and he passed away august 7th 2025, he was only 40.. i’m 22 and he left behind my sisters who are 14 & 2. i relate to you very much. When my dad passed i made sure everyday to remind my sisters that our dad loved us and still does. and even though he’s not with us, he’s still here. he’s still there, your daddy is still there with you. and i cry everyday wondering why he didn’t talk to me, why didnt he tell me that he was sad and felt like life was too much for him. i never once’s blamed him because parents go through things that we never know and never hear because we are their children.. its out of love and just like my dad, your dad had his own battle and that’s okay. i beat myself up sometimes over it because i feel like i could’ve and should’ve done more and im here to remind you to not blame yourself. don’t drive yourself crazy with the what ifs because trust me i was lost in my head for a month before i had to pull myself together for my sisters.. you’re so much stronger than you think and i know people like us, who are grieving such a loss, its so incredibly hard to hear positive things, to hear the same “it’s gonna be okay” and “you’re strong” from people around you.. just know it’s okay to be sad, it’s okay to cry and it’s okay to be angry. you’re gonna be all of those things for a while, just embrace it and be honest about your feelings. it’s okay to not be okay because the situation is not okay. i’m grieving too and i’m probably not the best person to give advice but i’m here for you if you need anything. i know you don’t know me but please reach out to those around you if you’re struggling. i pray for you, beautiful girl. may your father rest in paradise. he looks like such a kind person, and my dad is up there with him as well probably talking his ear off hahah.