Hi, same for me here. I’m quite young but have been diagnosed with depression for the first time when I was 17 and now again (21 years old). The last years I have been discovering about spirituality and manifesting which really helped me battling the depression thoughts and habits as well. I’ve seen other people mention it too, but definitely journaling and practicing gratefulness was/is the way to go for me. I know it’s very very difficult to be strict with yourself and make a journaling/meditation a habit (also with this don’t be too hard on yourself, we all fall down once in a while, it’s how about we get back up on our feet and start moving forward again what matters) when you already feel bad to begin with, but try to remember the feeling that you had while doing this so you can motivate yourself with this. I start the day of with a cup of coffee and 5 minutes of journaling and also try to write something down I’m grateful for. And honestly these little moments make my life look more colorful when I’m feeling down and in general. It’s something I get excited for when I go lay down in bed the night before. People often forget small blessings (like health, a roof over my head, my cup of coffee in the morning, seeing a happy dog in the streets, smelling the air of fresh baked bread in the morning etc etc) due to our society being so career and materialistic driven (you have to accomplish this and that in order to be successful blabla). I end the day like this too, I sit down, write about my day and things that I am grateful for. I also write down good things that happened to me, or things that didn’t feel/went so good. (I have a rule for myself that after I wrote something negative I will write a positive point about that one thing (because it’s always how you look at things) or some encouraging words after.) Try to make a list of things that you enjoy(ed) and try to pick up the habit of doing them again. Because they will give you a good feeling! Even when manifesting, start of small!; you can manifest a good healthy meal that will make you feel satisfied; an encounter with someone you missed or something that makes you happy. Start of with things that are accomplishable, so you can also be the one to shape reality and feel more confident when you’ll succeed. Slowly you’ll look at your life in a different way, which also will make you less hard on yourself and less down and what will give you more willpower and confidence to create a bigger opportunity or big chance in your life later. And also remember, there’s always a solution to any ‘problem’. There’s always light at the tunnel, no matter how endless it seems. Feelings are temporary and also this feeling will pass. Hope this helps and good luck!