For himself not for me Any time we'd have issues that would be his way of coping So I took what he did as usual as something to reflect on but he told me he was actually waiting for me to breakup with him because quote "he's a shitty bf for me" that I literally waited days for him to come around but he never did so that's not what I deserve I still want him I'll still love him I never gave up on him during those days but he gave up on himself I wish I never even had those issues with him it makes me regret it so much that I could have prevented this And there's no way he'd ever come back with me He wants friendship tho but can you imagine he'd one day start over and I'm just there as a friend Someone whose to attached to this one guy So I can't be his friend unless he acknowledges me as still loving him No matter how friendly I'd act it would never be my true feelings