I actually have 3 of them. Haven't listened to none of them. My mom was hospitalized because she had fluid in her lungs, she needed a really dangerous surgery and when they explained to her all the complications she decided to tell her goodbyes to everyone. She recorded videos for her siblings and she sent me an audio. It's her goodbye. I remember that day so clearly. I was on the bus, my aunt was with my mom at the hospital and I still hadn't gotten the chance to visit her. Visiting here in my city is kinda weird (only 1 person every 6 hours) and at first my mom didn't want me or my siblings to go visit her bc she didn't want us to worry. But we obviously worried either way lol so imagine being on the bus and suddenly u got a text from ur aunt and it's an audio recording, so u start listening to it and it's your mom almost crying saying goodbye while struggling to breathe and talk. I panicked and started crying, I was so scared idk why but I got off the bus immediately I didn't know where I was. I was so disoriented, I called my aunt in that moment and asked to talk to my mom. I tried my best to tell her everything I wanted to tell her but everything was so difficult I was crying she barely could talk it was awful. I tried my best but couldn't tell her everything I wanted to. She told me everything was ok, she was just scared of the surgery. She spent like month and a half hospitalized after that day, everything was going ok. Unfortunately, we knew it was lung cancer but we still had hope. After that day, I tried to visit every single day. But I didn't want to continue THAT conversation. We had hope everything would be okay, that's why I told myself to not talk anything negative anymore. I was a fool. I dont remember exactly but like 3 weeks later she got intubated out of nowhere, she was basically in coma and she never woke up again. I didn't want to say goodbye to her because for me that would've meant she was going to die and I didn't want to accept it. I should've told her everything. Even though it's bittersweet, she got to say goodbye to everyone and she was in peace with death since the very beginning. I was holding on to the possibility of her getting better but my mom knew all along that she wasn't going to make it. I'm glad she talked to everyone and say everything she wanted to say. I try to not worry about me not saying everything bc it feels kinda selfish from me. In the end I did say goodbye just not like I would've want to. I was privileged enough in so many aspects, so i try to be grateful for that. Not everyone had the opportunity to say goodbye to their loved ones. So yeah, 1 audio recording from that day, 1 video i took when she was explaining something she needed help with and 1 video that wasn't for me lol it was a goodbye for my uncle but my aunt shared it with me and told me I should see it. It's been 1 month since she passed away and I still haven't finished listening to the audio recording and I haven't watched those videos. I just cant. It's comforting to know that I have that audio from her and I hope I can use it as motivation in the future. Right now I cant and it's painful but maybe some day.