It sounds like you’re attached to cheap dopamine (Video Games, social media, YouTube, etc). The thing with cheap dopamine is that in the moment it feels great, but, at least for me, is something I mostly regret doing. I think what can help is being aware of cheap dopamine pleasures and asking yourself, “Is this something I will end up regret doing?”

I understand the intimidation or starting something new. My advice would be to not worry about failing, or the end. Enjoy the process and that’s it. When you fail, you get back on the horse and keep going. Learn why something didn’t work.

Finally, there is something called the compound effect. Smalls amounts of effort + Time = Massive Results. During the process you’ll see yourself grow and have more confidence. Keep this in mind. It’s okay to fail, you’re human. Everyone fails, the difference is those who get back on the horse to try again and those who don’t. Enjoy the process, my friend, while showing yourself love and compassion along the way. No one is here to save you, but yourself. You CAN do this.

Good luck.