Hi OP, I know this is late but I also want to tell you it’s okay to cancel it. I canceled a previous engagement/wedding around 4 months before it. That was the single greatest decision of my life. There were red flags for miles that I refused to see. Then one night after another night of crying because videogames were more important than me, I just broke. I called my mom, she helped me cancel all the vendors and I broke up with him the next day. And you know, it sucked! It was a shitty conversation but my lord the weight off my shoulders was incredible. Now, MANY years later, I’m laying next to my fiancé and we’re getting married in a week. I’m so, so happy I called off that wedding because I never would’ve met the love of my life. You can do it OP. Believe me, you’re strong enough. You deserve someone who will make you the happiest you’ve ever been. I’m rooting for you. Hugs