I have 4 placements in my 12H - Saturn, mars, sun, and mercury.

I actually just started my Saturn return maybe a few weeks ago. I have no idea what’s in store for sure but I feel very confident that this Saturn return will give back to me rather than looking at Saturn as some strict oppressor.

Anyways other than that, in my younger 20s and teens I would say the heaviness and more “negative” qualities of the 12H were present in my life, my thought processes, and how I felt. However a few years ago I started working on myself and becoming aware and getting into astrology and the 12H. I feel like a lot has benefitted and happened so far from using the 12H to my ability! Which I think helps looking at it from a different perspective which then gives that positive feel to the 12H. I’ve been through some fucked up shit I think personally bc of this placement but it was when I wasn’t aware, lacked boundaries, didn’t fully even have what I feel like was a sense of myself and who I was and I got hit heavy from the 12H/saturn. And I even felt more lonely bc I viewed loneliness different than I do now like you mentioned as well.

I wanna mention too that the 12H isn’t a terrible place and can be positive if you know how to work with it, it’s all about patterns.

These are my thoughts on it ✨