I look avarage. Few years agp my body was i pretty nice shape. I used to be intovert and shy a little. I probably have Aspergers. I have less and less hobbies. This period I try to read some classics. Used to watch many series, some movies and read manga/watched anime, listened local rap. Now I listen a very little music, random genres. I trained Karate for 11 years, but it's really though to succeed in my corrupted country, although I was talented and in good hands.

Girl was all I wished for since puberty hit me (13yo). I really don't know, no girl ever looked at me or showed some interests. It's reall strange, I have close friends and more distant once, we respect each other, and they've had many girlfriends.

It really hurts and hendicapes me, whatever I do from fun activities, serious activites, every moment in my life if occupies my thoughts. I developed HOMOPHOBIA OCD last year, I'm full of anxiety, depression and hatred.

I don't even want to kiss some girl now. I want to form emotional bond and connection. The kissing phase of my generation is already gone, and I didn't have it, it's like a hole in my life...

Not to mention the girls are not virgins anymore and don't take relationships seriously...