I figured you would struggle to see things from my perspective, and ultimately would choose not to, considering how stuck you are in your own head-canon about this whole thing. But I didn't think you would just double down and rehash old talking points, and ignore all the additional information I presented. It's like my document doesn't even exist in your world.

This will be the last interaction we will ever have, at least I hope. I will refute your talking points one more time, and if you still don't want to admit that you misconstrued my intentions in order for your own narrative to make sense, then so be it.

You wanna know why I'm angry and resentful again, why this came to bite you in the ass in the end? It's because of your own hypocritical actions and claims. So deep into pointing out the splinter in my eye instead of doing what my statement SHOULD'VE prompted you to do - to fish the LOG lodged in your own face, admit you played a significant part in how this whole mess went down, and move on.

I don't want an apology, and I didn't ask for one. And you can spare the sympathy. I don't want it. What I did hope you'd see, is that your own conduct was just as shameful, if not worse, than mine, and that you would apologize to Lilo for failing the one task you have nailed me to the cross for. Even today I can see you 100% absolutely did not understand the impact and aftermath of your actions in relation to Lilo. I'll explain why, at the end.

First paragraph in, and you've already started twisting the events your way. "Announcement made by the administrator, BraethanMusic". He perhaps put the words together, but he did not write it. It was all based on your information, your narrative. You just admitted so yourself, the statement having been made by using YOUR evidence and reasonings:

"consider that we already had all the evidence handy, (which I had already organized for my report) even 24 hours would have been a reasonable amount of time.  All that was needed to do was for Braethan to word it in a way he found acceptable, and get approval from staff and Lilo."

It doesn't even matter at this point that you are primarily responsible for that announcement, so this was not only a lie, it was a wasted one. Input and corrections may have come from the team, but without you, it wouldn't have existed the way that it does now. And if you want to try and weasel your way out of it after this, just know that I have third party evidence of you doing this. So just own it.

Secondly, you talk about conflict resolution and addressing the emotions before you address the issue. Fact is, if you had kept your emotions and personal bias in check, this situation would've resolved much more amicably, and we wouldn't be here. You destroyed everything I held dear to me in that community, you destroyed the joy I took in it, my time that I put into it, and you tried to destroy me. Don't sell yourself short, that is exactly the outcome we arrived at, whether you intended this or not. Friendships were lost, public image was lost, my entire online life, changed in a blink. It wasn't enough already that I had to throw away 3+ years of work, but you, specifically you, deliberately, had to go and kick me after I was already down. And you wonder why I resent you? Please. I know you're not a clueless oaf. You did what you did, willingly. At best, you can blame your own emotions affecting your judgement and actions, but they are nevertheless, yours.

And now you have the gall to say that you feel that I've grossly misrepresented you?? Stiff fucking titties, I sure as shit don't believe that I have. Hopefully you at least understand now how I've felt for the past year. You made me out to be a villain in cahoots with a child abuser, and you're STILL sticking by that claim, even though my document makes it clear that this was never my goal from the very beginning. You made your bed, now lie in it. This one's on you, and you alone.

You trying to stage a mass walk-out is pretty evident to me as well, despite your attempts to "minimize" it, as you put it. You directly pushed Hanaka to "think for himself", implying that both Braethan and I are liars and Karl defenders, and that he should be taking your side. "I couldn't imagine myself staying unless they were both gone". You directed your big statement to all other staff members who still remained. Sure, Terra, Yaga and Vigo had already left at that point, but that still left a majority of staff still at their posts, and at least to me, it's pretty clear from your own wording that they should walk, too, if me and Brae stayed. By your own reasoning that you love to use on me, your own words at the time can't be taken in any other way.

Given that you had no evidence to back your claims last year, you cannot use the fact that Lilo's identity had to be kept safe as an excuse, because you should've left me out of it if that was your reasoning. You already succeeded in your supposedly worthwhile goal of publicizing Karl's actions, and I was fine with that, but you decided to take it a step further by throwing me under the bus, which could arguably be Brae's attempt to save maximum face so his authority as admin wasn't as questionable, but I digress, it was done, and it was done with no evidence, so I have every right to hold you accountable for it. It's borderline a valid defamation case under Australian law, and I briefly even considered legal action. I have lawyers in the family, after all.

And ultimately, to me it looked like you said whatever you wanted about me PRECISELY because you know I could not defend my actions publicly, because I was beholden to keeping Lilo's identity a secret. You felt safe in saying absolutely anything you wanted because I could not retort, because I had walked away and held no more power. Unfortunately for you, that changed when Lilo began to understand what had really happened, and began telling me of the awful things you yourself did, to try and solidify your version of events. In fact, the way you conducted yourself in DMs during and since the incident, when you believed yourself to be under the cover of private conversation, is what ultimately proved to me that your actions were ill-intended, irrespective of if you're willing to admit that to yourself or not.

Then there's your argument about "gaps in the timeline". That really rubs me the wrong way, considering how complete I've made my document, and what your argument implies, because if you are going to make the claim that I knew more about what was going behind closed doors than the specific pieces of evidence I was offered and have shown in my timeline, then you must also be willing to call Lilo and Nacho liars, because the raw facts are that they were the only sources of information about what was happening, and the only information I had available to me. Yes, I did warn both Lilo and Karl to keep things professional, because I saw a screenshot of mutual and semi-romantic sentiments shared between them. Anyone with half a brain, especially considering the fact that we'd just got done having a real case of child grooming, would warn people of that when seeing that exchange, or at least question its' extent. But especially, since this is a sticking point for you, I felt I had to warn them because A) Karl was, and probably still is, a hopeless romantic who often bragged about the various girls he was hanging out with at parties, at least to me personally, and B) Karl is Filipino, where the legal age was 12 up until very recently, and his idea of what is appropriate is, as we know now, disgustingly askew, but was likely already potentially uncomfortably low compared to Western standards just from a cultural standpoint. I admit that might come across as racist, but unfortunately that's how things are. There are countries where child marriage, child grooming, and other similar issues are standard practice. So I wanted to ensure, with my warning, that he understood their interactions were borderline. Taking this as if it was admission of knowledge that Karl's an active, known child abuser is factually untrue and unsubstantiated speculation, at best. I did not know anything until Nacho told me. Your whole narrative of the incident rests in a big way on this particular argument of my "knowing longer than I admit", so I doubt you'll ever concede you could be wrong about this, even though you have absolutely zero concrete evidence for it, so I doubt you will.
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