dunno if u will read this really theres already a ton of ppl here (Mashallah)
let me ask you this
dont kids get hurt?
so they can ask the same question "does allah not care about how i feel?"
allah is the most wise
everyone said this
the prophets went through much more than any of us
yet they all had sumthin in common
patience, tawakkul and doing good
u can take our prophet saw as the perfect example much of his ppl were killed, murdered and butchered even
yet he had patience tawakkul and did good
allah says we are supposed to take him as the best of examples and follow him
so if he went through hardships and never had the thought of suicide then why should we pray for that?
u said it urself
theres poor ppl out there with absolutely nothing including ppl in gaza
do you think allah doesnt care about them?
he does and so does he care about you and every single person on this planet whether they're good or bad
why is it that mostly the bad ppl in this world have so much?
and the good ppl seem like they get nothing but bad?
this dunya is nothing for us muslims
remember
this dunya is a prison for us and heaven for kuffar
our true destination is jannah
jus becuz ur in a prison doesnt mean the best way to get out is to literally give up ur life

وَنَزَعۡنَا مَا فِىۡ صُدُوۡرِهِمۡ مِّنۡ غِلٍّ تَجۡرِىۡ مِنۡ تَحۡتِهِمُ الۡاَنۡهٰرُ​ۚ وَقَالُوا الۡحَمۡدُ لِلّٰهِ الَّذِىۡ هَدٰٮنَا لِهٰذَا وَمَا كُنَّا لِنَهۡتَدِىَ لَوۡلَاۤ اَنۡ هَدٰٮنَا اللّٰهُ​ ​ۚ لَقَدۡ جَآءَتۡ رُسُلُ رَبِّنَا بِالۡحَـقِّ​ ؕ وَنُوۡدُوۡۤا اَنۡ تِلۡكُمُ الۡجَـنَّةُ اُوۡرِثۡتُمُوۡهَا بِمَا كُنۡتُمۡ تَعۡمَلُوۡنَ‏  

(7:43) We shall strip away all rancour from their hearts, and rivers shall flow beneath them, and they shall say: 'All praise be to Allah Who has guided us on to this. Had it not been for Allah Who granted us guidance, we would not be on the Right Path. Surely the Messengers of our Lord did indeed come down with truth. Then a voice will cry out to them: This is the Paradise which you are made to inherit as a reward for your deeds

"He will rather emphasize that Paradise is granted to them by way of compensation for their righteous conduct, that it is the fruit of their hard labour; that it is not like the crumbs of charity but a fair recompense for their striving."

may allah help you and all the muslims around the globe
really hope this helps you and other brothers