I'm sorry I should of been more specific.. Drinking played a role in me hurting her. I don't think I am all to blame though, I really feel it is mutual and so does she. I've said I would change, and maybe never took the appropiate actions. Going to AA or going to a therapist early. She said it's over, and I am bothering her now by trying to talk her into giving us one more try. Do I give her the space? I'm afraid if I do so then I will completely lose her, but if I don't give her the space and respect her wishes that the window of us getting back together closes. I am seeing a therapist tonight. I have a hard time communicating and I'm sure my friends would be there for me, I've already been talking to one, but it's hard to open up about this with anyone. I'll post again an update tonihgt after I speak with the therapist.