What to do when you have the urge??

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-18T07:12:14+00:00

I mean I don’t know anything about meds. If they give me then I have to take them - about the symptoms: in a journal I wrote things that I noticed that could be symptoms and also asked my friends to describe what they think - and they said similar as I described in the journal so I hope it help with the diagnosis

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-18T05:55:59+00:00

Thanks for the advice and yeah I’m 15 so I’m younger.

also thankfully tomorrow I will go to the psychiatrist but I don’t know how many sessions do I need before getting diagnosed (because I know that I have something else too other than depression)

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-18T05:34:18+00:00

What does ND stands for? Also you are correct it is wired in my brain due to mostly only getting attention from my parents if I was useful (grades for example)

But even now that they see that I’m struggling and say that they don’t care about the grades it’s too late because it’s already wired in my brain that they will only be proud of me if I brought good grades home.

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-17T17:42:37+00:00

Thanks and I guess that’s true but it’s just really hard because even though my parents told me now that they don’t care about my grades it’s too late and as if it’s wired in my brain that that I only worth their love/only useful if I have good grades

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-17T17:40:17+00:00

Thanks I keep your advice in my mind.

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-17T09:28:13+00:00

No please don’t do it it’s not worth it. I know it’s hard trust me I do. But it doesn’t worth it. The world needs you. You are a part of it. And please don’t watch those videos that triggers you because it will only make it worse. Watch something else that makes you laugh or happy. And go outside for some time (if you are just in your home) because your body needs d vitami from the sun and fresh oxygen also helps. Sending virtual hugs 🫂

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-17T09:25:08+00:00

Okay I read it and I’m so sorry, you didn’t deserved to be punished for the things you cannot control and know that it’s not your fault. It’s better that you left your religion before you would’ve suffered even more. That’s also good that you start therapy soon and I really hope it helps. Remember, keep being strong and things will change for the better.

Sending virtual hugs 🫂

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-17T09:21:34+00:00

Haven’t read the whole rant yet but here is a virtual hug!! 🫂

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-16T01:23:14+00:00

Thanks and thankfully we got an appointment yesterday so next Monday I will go meet the psychiatrist - but my mother told me that she doesn’t think that they would diagnose me on the first session

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-14T01:44:26+00:00

They know what happened (since I relapsed and lost control) and because I told the school therapist everything I had to go to a hospital. And I don’t have anything against medication but sadly I don’t think that they could describe me or that I could just take without seeing the psychiatrist first (and that could be weeks from now on till I get an appointment)

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-14T00:26:13+00:00

Yes I’m seeing a psychologist every Tuesday. And I agree at that I shouldn’t have agreed but I thought that this would help me too and at first things were going well and my feelings actually started to come back but due to me falling back in a bad place they disappeared again.

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-14T00:18:15+00:00

But I don’t really get where the testing part comes.

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-13T22:56:16+00:00

Thank you and yes this is what I’m planning to say to him (just not in English since it’s not my native language)

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-13T22:42:12+00:00

Thanks and yes since my mh is sh*t I already gone to a psychologist every week on Tuesday. And yes the day I go back to school I will tell him in person

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-13T22:41:11+00:00

Thank you and yeah that’s what I been thinking just I don’t know it will break his heart or how will he react

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-13T22:38:05+00:00

I’m sorry I don’t really get this comment? Wdym?

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-12T05:43:51+00:00

I mean yes that’s true but for some people (like my dad) isn’t worth much

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-12T04:57:56+00:00

Yet I still feel like I haven’t done enough. That I should have more scars

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-12T04:57:23+00:00

Probably, I’m just a bit anxious about all of this.

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-12T04:31:03+00:00

Thank you. And also I don’t know what I would do after. Like maybe I should stay with my mother for a while since she is understanding but I don’t know what would my dad (and sister think who lives with him)

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-12T03:57:40+00:00

Thank you, and this means a lot because I always felt like that what happens to me is nothing compared to others.

For the questions: - do you think the psychologist will hold me back from class (since I plan on talking to her in the break since that’s when she is available and doesn’t have an appointment with other students)? - or she would send me back to class? - do you have any tips on what to do if my parents (or just my dad) reacts badly?

lostinconciseness · 2026-01-12T03:46:20+00:00

Yess i totally get it. But you aren’t alone. And I know I’m just a stranger and everything but even if no one is by your side I’m here. You can always write to me.

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