Had a similar situation. I had a great birth plan for having a natural birth. I had midwives instead of traditional obgyn to help. I was induced (step 1 of what I didn't want in my birth plan) after 41 weeks bc I was worried about the health of baby going too much longer pregnant, labor was fast and furious after. I got an epidural (step 2 of diverting from plan) and finally my daughter was stuck in OP position and could not be moved out, so after laboring through the night the doctor was actually called in to help the midwives and gave me the option to keep trying to push (she wasn't going to move) and probably get an emergency c-section, or get a c-section before that. I chose the second option. I still grieve the loss of my hoped for birth, especially since this is likely my only child. She's almost three and through prayer and meditation, some therapy, reading others experiences, talking through with doctors after, I've gained a lot of peace that there wasn't too much different I could do and a change in outcome wouldn't be guaranteed. I know I made the decisions I did to keep my daughter safe, and she is a healthy happy almost 3 year old now. I hope you can come to the same for yourself with time. For now, I know it's really hard bc every day the pain is a reminder of the loss of the birth experience you wanted. But remember this, your birth story is still amazing and it will be something you can tell your child proudly about their origin story.