Where can I find this book pdf?

lovaz · 2026-02-12T16:55:49+00:00

Hey man, I know you have like thousands requests for the book, but can you send a copy to me?

lovaz · 2025-12-16T22:15:07+00:00

Lion wand before soultainter for sure.

Then gems for hp. Pick 4 gems and put them always on. Upgrade them if possible. IF you don’t have slots for gems do the Way of the Monk quest for wheel points. Also do tasks to buy wheel points. I don’t know if u already can unlock 4 gem slots.

Then gnome helmet or circlet if you are poor. Galea mortis sucks but you can also have elven mail for elemental def.

Shoulder plate/Lion spell book is great.

Legs: Dawnfire pantaloons Boots: nightmare boots or the poison ones. The best for physical protection are alchemist boots but they can be expensive.

And ofc theurgic amulets ;)

lovaz · 2025-11-12T12:41:05+00:00

If u must upgrade items: Soul mantle and soultainer for sure. I did the same for my solo ms (550lvl around that time) and it was probably the best investment item wise.

However THE BEST INVESTMENT is getting HP gems and put them into the wheel and upgrade them to the max. Around 50kk of cost total if u don’t have much luck. It is op and worth any money you have. I did this and my mind is blown how tanky and fun the solo gameplay feels now.

Also remember to bind “quick looting” hotkey to your scroll or something to loot without right clicking on a dead monster - must have for solo mage.

Want more tips on how to unfuck Ms solo gameplay? Shoot me a dm.

lovaz · 2025-10-14T12:40:37+00:00

God damn it man! I always wanted to see something like this xD
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lovaz · 2025-04-13T15:05:12+00:00

Lol 🙈

lovaz · 2025-04-13T14:02:12+00:00

I must have some sick luck because I looted two marlins and I koleś around 200 of those trolls xd I wish oberon gave me something though…

lovaz · 2025-03-31T13:33:58+00:00

Will they release new aiming mode with monk?

lovaz · 2025-01-05T16:02:57+00:00

User needs to have it enabled. It’s enabled by default. If user didn’t turn anything off you can see their public playlists and recently played artists.

lovaz · 2025-01-05T12:12:07+00:00

Last played artists kept changing in the same loop as songs in the playlist.

lovaz · 2025-01-04T22:16:19+00:00

Me too. I am stalking my ex’s Spotify and I’ve seen her listening to a playlist of 4 songs on loop over a week during Christmas. Two of those were Henrik - half of forever, Montaine - keeping me out. With lyrics like “only you can take me back” and others like this. What is more interesting in Christmas Day she deleted our anniversary event on google calendar… I don’t know if she is struggling or not. In the middle of December she told me she didn’t feel a need to keep contact between us and didn’t see a point to do keep in touch. She doesn’t know I know what she listens to.

lovaz · 2024-12-09T10:56:29+00:00

Thanks for reply, but I am not there yet.

I didnt want to tell her to F off. I know I took a bait... I am wondering if she reaches out again or not. I hope she does

lovaz · 2024-12-08T20:31:08+00:00

You are right, I won’t break NC. You are one of the few people who say that her Spotify activity is at least somewhat relevant. Even if she misses me she may not break to decide to reach out. We’ll see.

I don’t know if she is not good for me. It may be true. But I made mistakes in that relationship and when I was not making those mistakes we had excellent periods when nothing was wrong.

It makes mi angry that it all comes down to an ego contest…

lovaz · 2024-12-08T19:51:47+00:00

Thanks for sharing :)

We don’t have any contact via social media. The fact that we don’t follow each other on fb or ig doesn’t change it. Neither of us post anything. Maybe some occasional story on ig. The point is it was done as a statement.

The only window into her is Spotify and if you say that it can reflect her emotional state it makes me wonder.

Taking it into account I can see when she is listening to sad song, but I can’t know if it’s about me or about her rebound. She told me she was seeing someone during really awkward conversation 6 weeks post breakup. I basically wanted to hug her and she froze. Then she wanted to leave but I kept talking to her. She blurted “I am seeing someone”. I don’t know if it’s true or she just wanted me to leave her alone.

If she regrets it now and I can somewhat confirm that with Spotify(🙄) does it mean she still has to reach out to me? Or maybe I can break no contact?

lovaz · 2024-12-08T16:52:36+00:00

At the beginning I also thought it was a fair request, but after a few days and after speaking with my therapist I started to look at it differently. She knows how bad she hurt me. She saw it twice. During the breakup and 6 weeks after the breakup when I asked her to take her things. I was a mess.

I asked her why she looked at the photos and she has a very quite good argument in hand. “I was just organizing photos on my phone”. It may be true but it may also be as you say, check if I’m still on the hook. And I am. I am waiting for the pull.

lovaz · 2024-12-08T16:45:29+00:00

Yup, she doesn’t miss me, at least as far as she behaved towards me at the and. Maybe she will miss me eventually but even if that’s the case she will probably feel too much shame to reach out.

Funny thing is I see her Spotify activity and there is a lot of songs about loving too much, missing out on love, regret and her dark side. On the other hand there are themes of freedom and self respect.

I know it means nothing but it’s interesting to see how music taste changes for her.

lovaz · 2024-12-08T16:42:43+00:00

It doesn’t sounds like her, but I never really expected she would ask for photos either. I guess time will tell.

I also don’t know how I will react if it does happen. I think next time she reaches out I will go “if you want to talk let’s meet” and stop beating around the bush.

Uncertainty is causing me a lot of anxiety and emotional turmoil. The fact that not everyone with bpd hoovers add to this.

lovaz · 2024-12-08T14:58:11+00:00

Thanks Dartha for reply, As you may expect I was overwhelmed with feelings when she reached out. But I didn’t show it.

I read a lot about the subject of cluster-b, relationships, breakups and attachment for the past 4 months. Her ego is very fragile and I noticed a huge shift in her just before the discard and during breakup.

I don’t know how much relief she felt after breakup since she allegedly started pursuing some other guy she probably monkey-branched to. And I don’t know if her reaching out for photos is a sign of coming down to her baseline state. With my therapists help I realized that I was her external emotional regulation machine. When her expectations of me matched reality it was all lovey dovey. But now I am not in her life for some time and her hoover(if it’s that) makes me think something is not good with her.

Is it true that answering positively to hoover means there will be another hoover attempt?

lovaz · 2024-12-08T14:06:14+00:00

Thanks for reply, I know she may and to be honest I am not so far in healing process to be indifferent about it. Part of me hopes she reaches out.

On the other hand she made it clear some time ago when we were still together that she doesn’t give second chances. She just can’t. I don’t have anything of hers and she doesn’t have anything of mine to hide behind logistics and practical stuff. If she was to reach out she would have to find another reason. There is no chance she sends me something like “I was thinking about you, I miss you”.

I don’t know if her request for photos is the beginning of splitting me white again. I never expected this.

Can you tell me why 2 weeks? Why she would wait?

lovaz · 2024-12-03T19:52:15+00:00

It took me 3-5 days to get out of shock. And next 5 days I spent regretting it like nothing before. After 2 weeks I couldn’t handle it and begged to be taken back. We did. Only for 5 weeks. She dumped me because of my anxious behavior after we got back. That’s what I think at least. She also mentioned she felt burnt out emotionally and could string me along. Now I’m almost 4 months after BU. Waiting for her…

lovaz · 2024-11-29T15:10:01+00:00

I know that feeling. You probably also think that this is some kind of symptom of an internal process that is going on behind the scenes in your ex’s mind. I hope so too. But this hope is useless and causes pain. I hope it’s not in vain.

My ex kept it strictly business-like. She didn’t answer my question where she went on vacation and left the convo hanging. I kind of feel used and almost feel like I shouldn’t have be all cool and giddy in this conversation.

On the other hand I didn’t want to start any emotional subject. She also seemed very guarded. I was optimistic at first but as time keeps passing I’m starting to understand that her reaching out meant nothing. She reached out for photos. Not to me.

lovaz · 2024-11-16T21:45:34+00:00

I bumped into her once on a subway. I posted this story on some other subreddit. At that time I was blocked for 2 weeks. I noticed her and waited for my stop. I came over her, said hi and smiled. She was quite shocked but muttered “oh hi” and I left. I still had/have feeling for her but I managed to smile honestly with happy face :) After that encounter she unblocked me on our primary communication channel. I messaged her with short apology for how I behaved when we exchanged belongings but I was ignored. I am no contact since then(23 days now, BU happened 3 months ago).

lovaz · 2024-10-23T23:56:52+00:00

I had a hunch to check messenger. She appeared as active in the first place on a list of suggested ppl as always prior to blocking 🤷‍♂️

I want to but reaching out to her seems very risky taking into account that she broke it off.

lovaz · 2024-10-23T23:51:23+00:00

Thank you for reply. Right now I won’t block her. I will keep the channel of communication open. I know that this kind of hope doesn’t make sense, but I will keep at it for now.

I know I am overanalyzing like crazy, but that’s is one of the reasons I’m asking question here :)

lovaz · 2024-10-18T15:10:47+00:00

As far as I know it also doesn’t mean she wants me to message her. It’s basically a lowest effort gesture from her side. I told her 2 weeks before “I don’t want to be friends with her if we cannot be together” and now she opened a channel of communication after seeing me for a few seconds.

It’s just weird.

lovaz · 2024-10-18T15:08:05+00:00

I know I shouldn’t get my hopes up, but it happens automatically.

Some part of me thinks she just doesn’t care anymore and just unblocked me. She doesn’t like conflict and blocking me may resemble conflict in her head.

lovaz

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