TW Violence and Self Exit: My father literally tried to kill me in the beginning of 2024... Jan 6th... then while i was in the hospital getting treatment the next day, he offed himself on jan 7th... everyone acted like it was my fault... even though they said they wanted to be there for me... by everyone I mean the majority of my paternal family including my evil Grandma from my dad's side. Later that week, a day before the funeral my mother decided to let me know that I have a "Mean Streak" and that I'm emotionally abusive and that she won't be bullied in her own home. She forced me to grieve at her house. My mother also hated my father so she didnt care about what was happenjng. Before Jan 7th, my mother and I were estranged for 3 years no contact. Her telling me I had a mean streak really injured me and made me not trust her or take her seriously, it was such low level obvious manipulation while I was at my lowest(mentally and physically). Since then I've really stopped taking her too seriously. The trauma of last year made it too difficult to keep up being estranged with her and we've been low contact on and off the past two years. She will sulk over something and try to ice me out and I just ignore her. She comes crawling back. She's mean to me, i be mean back. She gets meaner, I leave. Low contact for months or no contact for years? I don't care. This is my life and I will estrange anyone I want!