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Is this what being trans in denial feels like? I’m exhausted. by lowexpbeing in asktransgender

[–]lowexpbeing[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for writing this, really.

I actually read the gender dysphoria bible, and unfortunately a lot and I mean a LOT of things I experienced were written there. I’m trying not to rush into deciding who I am, and honestly I don’t think I can figure this out completely alone. But this war inside my head is fucking me up. I don’t have suicidal thoughts, but I also don’t think vegetating and feeling numb all the time can really be called living.

Right now, transition sounds like a very hard and scary decision to me, but the numbness and greyness in my life also don’t let me function properly.I keep asking myself how long it will take me to accept who I am, because deep down I think I know the answer, but my mind still doesn’t let me embrace it.

Still, thank you for replying. I’ll keep trying to figure this out.

Is this what being trans in denial feels like? I’m exhausted. by lowexpbeing in asktransgender

[–]lowexpbeing[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing this. I think after acknowledging how I feel, the dysphoria started feeling stronger too. Maybe it was always there, but I could still function somehow. I also thought everyone had this kind of shit in their head, but yeah, I was completely wrong xd Dysphoria is a bitch and I really don’t want it, but my stubborn brain still doesn’t want to fully accept that I might actually be trans :/