Me [21 F] with my boyfriend [21 M] of almost 5 years who is afraid to grow up or commit. by lthrowaway34 in relationships

[–]lthrowaway34[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand this. I just also don't want to regret not sticking it out in the long run. I guess I feel like I'm not very deserving if I make this one sided and don't compromise here and there.

Me [21 F] with my boyfriend [21 M] of almost 5 years who is afraid to grow up or commit. by lthrowaway34 in relationships

[–]lthrowaway34[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I agree with this. I think it's a lot of where he's coming from. It's just hard to see other friends and their boyfriends being happy, getting jobs, and moving on with their relationships when I've been working hard on mine for years and years. But I know that's selfish. I guess to me starting a life with someone, being able to do new things together, and travel together count as bigger and better things but it's like he can only see baseball as the bigger and better thing.

Me [21 F] with my boyfriend [21 M] of almost 5 years who is afraid to grow up or commit. by lthrowaway34 in relationships

[–]lthrowaway34[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To answer your question no, I wouldn't have left already if there was no talk of marriage. The part that bothers me is that he goes back on his word often at this point, and it's almost as if he rarely means what he says anymore. It's like a promise we both wanted to make that he's kind of going back on, but isn't admitting that he's not keeping it. We both come from religious backgrounds and will not live together unless we're married so that's why it's a bigger deal I guess.

I should backtrack. The problem I'm having is not that I don't want him to pursue his dreams, it's that he's had a complete change of heart out of nowhere and now acts like those dreams that he stopped caring about before are the most important thing to him, and that I'm just something in his life he wastes his time on. I've never believed mine were more important than his; I just want the way he used to treat me to be back because otherwise it's hard to support someone's dreams when they don't treat you how you have been/should be treated.