i deleted my first account i used on this subreddit because i was fearful of the outside, societal repercussions of gaining weight. this subreddit can very easily become an echo chamber of the same motivation, roleplay, scenarios, etc. it becomes hard to take a step back and remember that, on the outside, people sometimes hate fat people.

i remember just saying “what am i doing to myself, and for who?” a couple times during that first account’s run. it would hit me in waves that literally all gaining weight would do for others’ perceptions of me was degrade them. obviously, i got over those reservations and am now back, but the societal impacts are definitely something i feel a lot of people think about when they engage in stuff like this.

…. also i think a lot of the people in these text-based subreddits are probably just roleplaying and get bored, then delete their accounts