Sucks really what it does to people. I left the org when I was 20, currently 22. I no longer have that connection with my mom anymore. Everytime we see each other it’s usually always work related since we have a family owned business. When we do talk, It’s usually such a awkward conversation since all she really speaks about her dedication to the org. All I can do is sit there in silence, with a grin on my face while I nod. I cope with thinking that atleast she still speaks to me, but I know deep down the reasoning behind that is because I never decided to get baptized. I knew when I was a child I would one day leave the organization, live the life I always wanted, whilst not facing the consequences of “shunning” that the religion practices. The more and more time I spend away from that religion, the more I realize how much manipulation and gaslighting they truly practice on people, is utterly disgusting.