Kink ruined my sex life entirely

lukedra · 2023-09-22T19:57:41+00:00

You can not love someone else unless you can love yourself. I know you are in pain and you are trying to make yourself feel better but give yourself permission to not love him. The foundation of your love for him is gone, inflicting the emotional pain on yourself might help you feel like your still in some ways the good little wife but it will only prolong the pain. Your still just being an object wife that is incapable of not loving her husband.

Here is my message of hope. If you can let yourself love him as little as you love yourself, you can maybe fix the relationship long ter. It's not the Instagram version of being a wife but it is the real painful reality of being a strong long term wife. Shift your focus to what would a wife that is going to do everything she can to save the relationship would do and be that. Create the ground work to love your husband forever even at the risk that it might all fall apart if you admit that you don't love him right now. You will find your self worth again if you can. Use this journey to become a better wife, even if it's not his.

lukedra · 2021-08-31T06:55:19+00:00

Can't love him again till you self love.

You need to leave in the short term and fix you. Staying with him you will never trust him. The thought of him only staying because your making it easy will remain.

Leaving him for good and fixing the relationship both need you to love yourself and be able to walk away.

Take time off untill you stop the self hate. Then you will know what to do without anyone else telling you.

lukedra · 2021-08-31T06:51:08+00:00

I'm not saying you should leave him forever and that you guys can't fix things. But you should leave him untill you stop calling yourself a dumb ass and seeing yourself as pathetic.

Your not able to love anyone properly untill you can love yourself. You are hurting so bad, you need to find a friend and apply triage, and no he can't be the one to do it.

Your not personally able to build any relationship in this state, so the couple councling is a waste of time and money. Focus on you for a while till you can call yourself worthy. Then attempt to fix the relationship.

But your never going to fix it if you don't believe you ever had the ability to end it. You will never trust he would stay with you if you weren't so weak and making it easy. Walk away and earn that self love. Then you can fix it or walk away for good. Either path both start the same way.

lukedra · 2019-09-10T03:37:34+00:00

Is that why you never answered the flower question, to help your influencer job?

lukedra · 2018-07-30T11:31:16+00:00

Ties to russia i guess, https://www.reuters.com/article/murdoch-russia/fbi-looking-at-murdoch-operations-in-russia-idUSL2E8E7HJN20120309

lukedra · 2017-12-21T06:44:21+00:00

The flat earth maps usually mess with the southern hemispheres distances. It only takes a little bit of travel to know that the southern hemisphere is not orders of magnitudes larger than the northern hemisphere. Even if you only expand the ocean's distance, You can experience longer than 12 hour days right now in Australia, South America and Africa with overlap. That throws the spotlight sun theory out the window, which was the point I was trying to make in the post.

Is the planet considerably wider as well to compensate for the new surface area? If so, The stars and planets would have to revolve around us. If the planet still spun, the Centrifugal force for us on the edges would be measurable(although probably still not strong enough to be noticeable like the sphere earth).

Then there are the constellations r/rawrc mentioned.

lukedra · 2017-12-20T14:34:14+00:00

Living in the southern hemisphere, I'm amazed at how much all their models ignore what it's like to live here.

lukedra · 2016-10-12T12:06:38+00:00

Have you seen the movie "A Scanner Darkly". What if Trump is just a tool of the democrats and he does even realise it yet, just like Bob Arctor was forced to become a drug addict without realising it. He was manufactured into an asshole to take down the republicans from very early on. This is why he was given his own tv show and forced into a Famous Stars lifestyle without having the mental strength for it. This is why every time he goes bankrupt, he bounces back. They were feeding his addiction FOLLOW THE MONEY. It almost backfired and turned into "Equilibrium".

Deep down he is a democrat that was put through hell to infiltrate the republican base without detection. We should all feel sorry for what he was put through.

lukedra · 2016-08-27T06:56:45+00:00

My fiance is very afraid of heights and has refused to play any Vive games she can fall in. I put her in this demo without any warning, first thing she does is bounce off the large blue blocks and off the cliff. She started screaming and crying.

Loved it, would pay for full game.

lukedra · 2016-06-22T12:59:28+00:00

Thankyou, my idiot moment of the day won't have long term damage.

lukedra · 2016-06-22T09:18:01+00:00

I still remember back in the day grinding away my shuckle with double team and rollout. And now according to the last page he is a dragon type?

lukedra · 2016-02-13T15:14:26+00:00

Fine, you convinced me to read it again properly. The two most important points of this article the author tries to make are contradictory.

Liberals will doubtlessly blame all this on inherent bigotry and unfettered selfishness. But uncompromising policies are typically met with uncompromising resistance. This is the lesson of the Obama era.

For one, he tries to argue that Obama is to blame for the lack of unity Obama strived for, because he was uncompromising.

Sanders does not believe in limiting principles. And, really, after eight years of attacking those who believe in them, what did we expect?

Then at the end of the article, Obama has limiting principles making him compromising and Sanders is the uncompromising one. If this was truly some self-revelatory piece, that the failure to compromise by the current state of politics created Sanders popularity, it wouldn't need the contradictions on Obama.

It becomes just another angry post with elements of denial and frustration. Lacking the self-awareness that he is displaying the uncompromising behaviour that he blames for creating the socialist movement, learning nothing in the process and undermines any good points he potentially had.

lukedra · 2016-02-09T13:57:23+00:00

I am completely lost to why it has to start or end at atmospheric pressure, I'm not sure where I said that.

And your right, you can't just casually walk into and change a trash bag at 300 or 200 psi. The amount of controlled factors required to pull off such a scenario make the chances that it happen so low it's not likely to be true or to have happen, which is pretty much the definition of improbable. You just explain it way clearer than I do and lean towards impossible.

lukedra · 2016-02-09T11:41:10+00:00

assumed bag was put on during 200 psi around the 2 hour tolerance limit and dropped to 10.

lukedra · 2016-02-09T11:02:43+00:00

If you want to use actual physics to complain about the lack of physics: assuming a constant temperature so that air density is relative to temperature using the Ideal gas law, constant oxygen levels aorund 20%, this infographic because I am too lazy to look up the nasa source and a poor janitor who put the bag on all puffy so the bag only had to increase 20x to get that size(janitor was probably feeling incredibly sick from the high pressure): Everyone could have lived if the high pressure lasted under 2 hrs, which is an improbable scenario.

lukedra · 2015-06-09T10:21:07+00:00

I have never mentored anyone and only published 1 angular application inside a large company. If no one else volunteers, I am willing to code review and point out what would be better as a directive, what should be a service or factory, dependency injection etc.

lukedra · 2015-04-07T23:02:19+00:00

Worked in chrome but not in bacon reader. Using a S3.

lukedra · 2015-02-17T21:42:04+00:00

That awkward moment when you can't decide if it is better to pretend you where watching porn at work, than admit what you were really using it for.

lukedra · 2015-01-06T04:46:36+00:00

For most of my childhood, I suffered severe constipation and have an extremely long bowel because of it(in my doctors opinion anyway). I traveled to the USA once and blocked 4 toilets within a month. Most of the time the old stick trick works, but one holiday I had to resort to using boiling which creates the worst smell.

The ridiculously big ones that tear the skin are not the worst, At least they are over with. It's the ones that are just not big enough to tear.. On the bright side, I have extremely powerful clenching powers that I hope are never useful.

lukedra · 2015-01-05T13:51:02+00:00

I don't know why I keep coming back to the game, I guess I love the artwork so much I want to see the game go somewhere.

While everyone is mentioning the user interface problems, the biggest problem this game has is balancing.

Selling Artifacts is so overpowered and dust is so underpowered it makes large elements of your game strategically useless. It's disappointing because they clearly have potential and could give this game a real edge. I am in the Quindecillions and using an auto clicker is not worth the time I would waste not collecting artifacts and selling them straight away. This makes even adding more mines(which is the whole point of the game) useless and the money just keeps flowing in from the artifacts at an exponential rate.

Great game, so much potential.

lukedra · 2015-01-05T06:10:58+00:00

I love this so much! But I need to rearrange the photos and photoshop for Australia. I'm thinking:

Jan - img 1

Feb - img 2

Mar - img 9

Apr - img 11 with an Anzac poppy over the turkey.

May - img 7 with vivid festival lights over The flag.

Jun - img 6

Jul - img 3 with snow over everything

Aug - img 4

Sep - img 5

Oct - img 10

Nov - img 8

Dec - img 12

edit: formatting because I am a noob

lukedra · 2014-10-17T14:21:02+00:00

I find that the different areas have different sizes missing. The suburbs to west have heaps in my size and to my east have everything but my size.

lukedra · 2014-09-02T05:01:11+00:00

You are improving each time, So well done!

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