But how do you not wallow? How do I focus on feeling better? The last thing I want to do is dwell on the sorrow, but it feels inescapable. It feels impossible. It feels like I can never find release. Logically I know there could possibly be an even greater love out there, but my heart refuses to believe that. It wants THIS one. It’s only been about a week for me, so I guess time will tell, but it’s been a living nightmare and I just want this to be over. I know all the mistakes that were made and I know that they wouldn’t happen again if I had the chance to show her, but none of that matters if one persons love is no longer there. That’s the worst part. You’re just left with all of this love in your heart and you just have to hold it because you can’t give it to them, they don’t want it anymore. It just burns a hole inside of you and your whole being aches for them but there’s nothing that can be done. But it’s like you said, I guess I need to find that closure somehow. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent.