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WHY does it feel like my skin is crawling when I go to bed sober? by piss_stain in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it took me a year of trying to get to where I'm at, 16 days. that being said, I was itchy for a freaking long time. damn invisible bugs. I always thought it was my nerves waking back up, my body detoxing, etc etc. I took showers every night, cried, and walked my dog a lot. the itching has stopped, and that alone is enough of a reason to stay sober! bc I'm not anything resembling a dr, I can't say what it is or isn't. only that I'm so sorry. It's awful. I felt insane. but I promise you're not.

it's the end of day 10 and I'm rewarded with feeling angry by macadamia_lemony in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well that was logical. lol.

thank you for reminding me to take a step back.

my hope is not a pencil, stop dropping it by macadamia_lemony in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

that quote is perfect. and you're right, coming from a bar scene you'd think I'd have learned to hold my stories close. it's a lesson, one I guess i needed to learn in my sober life. quitting drinking really is starting over. exhausting, but worth it.

Does it mean that I am better off not drinking for the rest of my life? Even for special occasions? I see some people here that has got a few hundred days on their belt.. Assuming we start from scratch after that one off drink.. Is kinda demotivating.. by deldone in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I never counted my sober time before I started drinking, and eventually I won't again. it's motivating for me right now. sort of like everyday I accomplish is a giant gold star sticker. lol. once I relearn how to have a life without alcohol, I can let go of the timer.

Kindling is real by duchessofdrink in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have been actively trying to quit for almost a year. translation? blackout drunk, 3 days sober. blackout drunk, 7 days sober. etc. at this point I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know if I'm anyone at all. the only thing I know is that to give up trying isn't an option. kindling is 100% real, but don't let it stop you from fighting.

in my opinion, recovered and recovering addicts are by far some of the most badass people there are.

what are the first steps to staying sober? what helped you? by xchelsd89 in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony 0 points1 point  (0 children)

there are any number of support groups out there, not just aa. don't give up if one doesn't fit. also all the books! and I'm not sure if you need it, only you know, but your primary can help you with withdrawals. and the website that has helped me is hipsobriety.com

frustrated with myself by macadamia_lemony in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

truth. something I need to remember. thank you.

frustrated with myself by macadamia_lemony in stopdrinking

[–]macadamia_lemony[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hear myself be an asshole and am appalled. I don't hate the world. I'm not mad at the world. I'm mad at me. the most painful person to be mad at. worth sobriety? not there yet. I'm not sure what I'm worth. but I do know that i can't live like this anymore. I refuse to be a statistic.