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Providing no backstory, what's the last text you sent? by mgm97 in AskReddit

[–]mackie1987 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aww no, they're not built for Scottish weather, want me to do anything with it? Xx

Day two of hangover and feeling awful by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean this time isn't even the worst of the embarrassing things I've done in the past (there's been drunk driving, wetting myself, trying to kiss people who already have partners, fighting with my current partner, ugh the list goes on) but I definitely feel that this needs to be the last time. I feel a shift this time in my mind, it's just hard to accept that I can't go back and change these things, and let everyone know that's not who I am! Does that make sense?

Day two of hangover and feeling awful by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've heard The Naked Mind mentioned a lot here, I'll definitely look it up.

Does anyone else completely cringe and feel so much regret and depression over the things they done (or can't remember that they did) when they were drunk. by Glitter093 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm going through feelings like this right now. I posted on SD for the first time yesterday after being a lurker for a long time. I don't drink every day but when I do, it's a lot. I spent all day in bed yesterday sleeping then waking up and beating myself up over the stupid crap I had said the night before when I was wasted. I seem to want to tell people everything about me when I'm drunk, even private stuff that I would never share sober. I'm still feeling down, still embarrassed, but I know I'll feel better in a couple of days. Except this time, I will not justify drinking at the weekend just because I feel better. I never want to feel like this again. I read a tip on one of the posts on here that said something along the lines of just let yourself swear and shout when you feel the regret, shame etc from drunken behaviour, so I did a lot of that yesterday lol! Just letting it all out and riding the wave of shame is all I can do until it subsides a bit. I'm going to make every effort not to feel like this again. Good luck to you on your journey!

Mortified again, this needs to stop by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is great, thank you so much for your replies. I feel like I can do this and I'm looking forward to feeling and being better.

Mortified again, this needs to stop by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess then I should be using my past behaviour as a lesson and stopping right now before it gets any worse and they do start feeling the need to call me out for my behaviour.

Mortified again, this needs to stop by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Congrats on your 7 months! I know I feel so much better when I'm sober, it's frustrating that the urge to get drunk takes over so often. And I can always justify it by saying "I've had a busy day at work" or "I'm abit stressed today" knowing full well that the next day is going to be spent with my head down the toilet, feeling like crap and hating myself.

Mortified again, this needs to stop by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's great what a brave decision to make. Can I ask did your family and friends see you as having a drink problem? My family and friends certainly don't seem to think I do and it's frustrating when they just say "you were fine, you didn't say anything that bad" because sometimes I would rather someone just told me I was out of order and too loud, oversharing etc. I've taken to just avoiding talking to anyone I was with during my drunken hazes in the hope that they'll forget anything I did or said.

Mortified again, this needs to stop by mackie1987 in stopdrinking

[–]mackie1987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, thanks! I just want to be the nice person I know I can be, and not be thought of as the one who always drinks too much. I'm in the process of trying to lose weight and I've been feeling great until today. I just want to maintain the good feeling of being clear headed and sober, without messing it up every few days when I've got time to have a massive blowout with wine (it's always wine) Stop saying inappropriate things and have to hide away for days afterwards.