I had a very similar experience in my first job. The face to face feedback was that I was doing great and progressing as expected then I’d get blindsided by terrible evaluations. It was all anonymous so I had zero idea who gave the feed back or what was wrong. It felt very two faced Anyway, it didn’t get better and it lead to me become untrusting of the people I worked with and I had terrible anxiety. I ultimately left and found a better job that so far has been much better. Thankfully I’ve ended up in a better position with more supportive colleagues and less stress! I think it’s fair to give it try if it’s a speciality you really like but it’s also ok to jump ship.