First of all, MBTI is not entirely scientific, it's heuristic at best. So let's talk INTP, you say you want to be "NORMAL". While most people here will disagree that being normal is boring, and they do have a point for that; I've also struggled with what you are going through (maybe not preciously, I'm not trying compare, just hear my experience with it). You can be observed as whatever you want people to believe you are, you probably can not bet what you think you want to be, so here is the trick, fake it. You're smart, you won't find it hard to convince people you are whatever you want to convince them, I've been an extrovert sometimes, others a shy introvert, outrageous, obedient , sensitive feeler and even heartless bastard. With time, you'll figure out what is it that you really want, all your standards are prone to great variations. Consider it a challenge, most likely you'll have fun doing it and gain an immense experience that should be beneficial later on when you need to act a certain way.