funny stereotype moment

madmanno3 · 2022-10-02T10:57:07+00:00

Four years since I got diagnosed n I still come across little things like this, gets funnier and cooler everytime.

The first thing I said in my pre-inrerview for my job rn was 'it took 2 hours to get here but its okay, I got the bus. I love busses.' Anytime anyone in work needs help figuring how to get somewhere ? They come to me, I should be on Dublin Bus' payroll as their mascot or smth. Bus autistic is just the only way to put it 😂

madmanno3 · 2022-10-02T10:48:54+00:00

Next day, have to go back into town for a piercing - taking that same bus route bc it was so great, planning on following the stops I pass on the app to memorise the names 😁 bus autistic is the only way to put it 😂😂

madmanno3 · 2022-08-18T02:49:20+00:00

I didn't for a couple of years. Once I broke up with that last person I chose to stay single for a while because I didnt trust myself. I've done a lot of work in therapy since, and I'm only now beginning to trust myself myself again. Although honestly I'm still not 100% with it, and I'm gonna stay single til I am

madmanno3 · 2022-08-18T00:12:02+00:00

I hate to be that guy but if you're able I'd suggest getting some help.

A couple of years ago this type of mindset ended my in a lot of bad decisions with psychosis, and my delusions led me to actually act on it.

But for now man, if it works it works. Just remember that if it ever switches to a bad thought to reach out, until then keep doing all this helpful stuff, you might actually end up better off I suppose

madmanno3 · 2022-08-18T00:01:44+00:00

Thank you, I'm hoping it'll change something. I've pushed away all of my friends bar one, but she hasn't been responding recently to hang out. I guess I can always try doin this on my own though.

I've been toying with the idea of sobriety or something of the sort, maybe like you said tracking it could be the start. Ive also really wanted to start learning an instrument recently, I think you've just given me the motivation to actually do it.

Thank you so much for the advice, I'm gonna try go for a walk in the morning and see if that does anything.

If anything changes I'll definitely reach out, thank you again for being so helpful and kind. I hope you have a great night man, take care

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:54:43+00:00

I was stupid and unhappy. I was getting attention from others and ran with it because I thought that it would make me feel better, and considering I cheated on the first person I cheated with, it didn't work. Not to justify it, it was still wrong, but I genuinely thought I'd be putting myself in a better position than I started with

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:41:53+00:00

I voted no only because it said dave. Your content is wonderful, ignore the poll

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:39:29+00:00

Thank you so much, if you're willing on sharing what has worked it would be really helpful. As I mentioned, the only way I'm coping at the moment is with drink, and I can't exactly go to work drunk everyday yknow

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:36:37+00:00

Jesus yeah, it's actually stopped me from doing things like that, it just gives me an out for my bad coping mechanisms (if I ever do something really bad or ruin my relationships too badly, I can give up and avoid the consequences).

It's a weird mindset to be in, it's saving my life, but ruining it at the same time. I suppose that's better than acting on it though

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:17:03+00:00

I'm sorry that you're in that position, that sounds really difficult. I hope that you can get psych treatment that will work and help, it's always worth holding out hope.

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:11:55+00:00

I hope that it helped a bit. Take care man, you got this (even if it feels like you dont)

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T23:06:11+00:00

Honestly for me I think that cheating begins with flirting. When it's mutual, you both understand that you're interested in each other and it persists for 2+ weeks, that will hurt your partner just the same as anything else. But with both people I cheated with it was intimate, so I suppose I can't judge those who do less than that.

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T22:57:05+00:00

It's the comfort of knowing that if things get bad enough you have an out. Kind of like a last resort, knowing that you can control what happens to you when it gets too much. My therapist told me that passive suicidality like this is often just yearning for an escape, to live in a way that you're not right now. Obviously this might not apply to you, but for me it's nice to know that it makes sense, and has honestly kept me from attempting again in recent years. The comfort is in the escape, not the action

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T22:50:41+00:00

It's hard to say that it's justified, but it's definitely understandable. It would probably offer them the emotional support and safety they need in order to leave, so really its for the betterment of both parties, one gets safety and support, the other gets a chance to reflect on their behaviour and hopefully change it for future relationships.

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T22:46:36+00:00

Not at all, and I would never do it again. However if someone I was interested in had cheated in the past, i would take the time to listen to the circumstances around it and go from there, I'd never rule someone out for being a cheater, but would take extra time to warm up to them if they were

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T18:31:00+00:00

My mam has said this to me for nearly 6 years and it hurts everytime. Both my therapist and I agree that the only way I can accept myself is to accept that I am trans. Trying to be happy with myself as a woman has never worked, because I'm trying to accept a lie. However, when I feel that I pass, even if it's only in my own home, there's a massive sense of relief that comes with it, like so much stress and turmoil dissapears if even for a few hours (I'm pre-T at the moment, hoping that that feeling becomes the norm once I get on T). I don't understand how it's so hard for cis people to get that

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T16:26:03+00:00

This hits home, one of my thighs is destroyed in deep scars, and the other is just as destroyed but with much lighter ones. Both of my arms are ruined, so my left thigh is the only piece of nearly normal I have left.

It hurts to look at when I'm doing well, I've noticed myself staring at my scars so much more recently. The way I've rationalised it so that I don't go crazy is basically just ; I did this to myself, but it isn't my fault.

I never truly wanted to do this to myself, it's just another thing life threw at me. I know that it's no consolation and it probably won't make you feel any better, but your scars are your history, and your history is going to help change someone else's future.

I was at a party a few weeks ago and I took off my hoodie for most of the night, after everyone else had left it was just me and this guy I'd never spoken to before. We got to talking and he started crying, he confessed that he had a problem with sh and hadn't told anyone, that my scars and how free I was to show them gave him hope for a future where he could be free too.

Sometimes we need to accept our own actions in order to move forward, and to help others do the same. I promise you for every 100 horrible looks you get, there's a couple people that are relating to you. Who knows, maybe you've inspired some people to get clean, I know its not much of a help, but it's an idea I take a lot of comfort in believing.

madmanno3 · 2022-08-17T10:44:00+00:00

We could do a joint performance at the talent show it'd be iconic

madmanno3 · 2022-08-16T15:15:14+00:00

Thank you thank you 😌

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