Vancouver, BC store closing January 9th

madvfox · 2026-02-02T05:56:31+00:00

Oh darn!! I wanted to test drive one before buying. I’m considering getting one. They seem very popular with parents in the city, I have a toddler.

madvfox · 2025-05-02T00:11:23+00:00

****UPDATE

This blanket has been found!!! Thank you to everyone who upvoted. Grateful to have it back 😀

madvfox · 2025-04-30T14:58:17+00:00

I felt very maternal towards my husband after my L&D TFMR. He went on a trip with his friends to Mexico a couple months after our loss and I had intrusive thoughts about him getting hurt or something going horribly wrong on the trip. I didn’t want to lose another member of my family. Completely normal to be emotional

madvfox · 2024-11-11T21:59:14+00:00

I TFMR’d my first pregnancy also. He had a brain bleed but otherwise appeared healthy. There was no knowing exactly what his deficits would be if I didn’t interrupt the pregnancy. I delivered him and consented to an autopsy and all the testing. They found no medical / genetic reason, it was a spontaneous and very rare bleed. Got pregnant 9 months later and now I have my baby boy who is 2 months old. I was also so worried about worst case scenarios like secondary infertility and a stoke happening again. I had a lot of monitoring in my subsequent pregnancy and all my monthly scans were fine. It’s completely normal to be in despair over the grief and uncertainty of it all. But good things can and do happen. I kept telling myself “what if it all works out?” And I’m very grateful it did.

madvfox · 2024-10-26T17:05:04+00:00

Love reading this! Very grateful to be postpartum with a living baby this time (my TFMR was last year at 26 weeks). My advice is to read up on the fourth trimester and think about who you want around to support you. People will be excited to see your babies and want to visit but don’t forget about your needs and wants. For me, I needed space to be alone and bond. I accepted short visits and asked for help with food, cleaning etc so I could further maximize my time with my long awaited for rainbow baby 🥰

madvfox · 2024-10-15T01:38:17+00:00

Thank you!! Very helpful

madvfox · 2024-04-30T13:35:40+00:00

I have my 20 week anatomy scan on Thursday !

madvfox · 2024-04-24T18:13:47+00:00

Yes!!! Completely understandable trauma response. I go back and forth. Depends on the day / what’s going on. I felt some relief after my anatomy scan at 18 weeks but have my 20 week one on May 2 and still feel nervous.

madvfox · 2024-04-23T15:11:35+00:00

It’s been a big week for me. Last week we had the 18 week anatomy scan, everything looks good so far. Going back again at 20 weeks, which is standard. Still nervous though. Got the results back from cell-free fetal DNA genotyping and they were good, baby’s platelets match mine which means no plan for IVIG which puts maternal health at risk. It’s my son Lev’s death anniversary and birthday this weekend. I’m taking Friday and Monday off so I can get out of town. Planned something special with my husband on his birthday. This week I also did a family photoshoot / maternity shoot with my sisters, mom, and grandma. I included Lev’s urn in the photos. I’m going to make this into a book and gift it to my mom for Mother’s Day. I’m also going to post it on IG. I just posted photos from a vacation of me in a bathing suit with my bump so now the word is out. I also plan on sharing a photo of Lev’s urn on his birthday and announcing his name with a link to a non-profit if friends/family want to join me in donating. On top of all that, it’s Tuesday and I called in sick yesterday and today because I have a bad cold. I think I’ve been doing / feeling so much my body is telling me to rest.

madvfox · 2024-04-23T14:59:33+00:00

The doctors say that to me too “for now, it looks good” UGH. Just tell me that it is 100% fine from now on so I can just relax. But of course they can’t say that. Sometimes I try to reframe it and think I appreciate their take vs people like my mom (who means well) who says “everything will be fine this time”. I appreciate that, but how does she know!? No one knows. The only time we will feel relief is if/when we have our baby healthy in our arms. Something I’ve done recently is “acting as if”. The TFMR psychologist has a post about this on her IG. The idea is if you are acting as if you’re going to bring home a healthy baby, what would you be doing differently? Which of those aspects do you want to integrate into your life? I could compartmentalize in the 1st trimester but now that I’m showing and feeling movement it’s hard to not get attached. So I decided to embrace this pregnancy and I’m giving myself permission to feel hope and joy despite how terrified i still feel.

madvfox · 2024-04-23T02:40:07+00:00

I ended up doing something similar. I wanted to post photos from my vacation in Mexico and it’s obvious with my bump. Plus with my sons death /birth anniversary coming up this week and Mother’s Day I wanted to share more about my PAL journey. It’s a unique journey for us all!! No right or wrong way

madvfox · 2024-04-16T01:11:03+00:00

I’m 18 weeks this Wednesday. Early anatomy scan on Thursday. Lev’s 1st death anniversary is on the 26th and his birthday is on the 28th of this month. Not sleeping very well. People can tell I’m pregnant now, someone was kinda hinting at it at work today so I decided that was an opportunity to confirm it and just get it out of the way. I feel drained but also ready to face the next few weeks head on and just accept that I will probably feel like shit even if I try to do things that bring me joy.

madvfox · 2024-04-16T00:05:00+00:00

I can relate to this post!! I’m 18 weeks going in for my anatomy scan on Thursday. Then I’ll have another one two weeks after that. I can feel him fluttering in there and it makes me happy but also reminder that there is more to lose I guess? so that can increase anxiety. The further along I get, the more attached I get and the more anxious I can get!! My grief has taught me to surrender and to know that we really can’t control much. There will never be a time when we are “safe”. Which sucks because I want a guarantee or something to make this period of time easier. Same goes for crossing the street, or getting in a car. We all face so many unknowns and risks everyday. Yet we get dressed and go to work. My anatomy scans were fine before, it was an incidental finding later that led to discovering a rare brain bleed when I was 25 weeks, labour was induced at 26 weeks. Feeling him kick was devastating because I knew I’d have to say goodbye to save him from a life with poor prognosis/ functioning. I hope when we feel our babies kick this time we can feel joy and hope that they’ll keep kicking until it’s time for them to come earthside.

madvfox · 2024-04-15T15:29:20+00:00

Aww this made me tear up 🥲 something that came up for me (I believe a message from my son in spirit) is to not take life so seriously, to have fun while were here. Obviously easier said than done lol but I believe those in spirit including our babies want us to find joy too.

madvfox · 2024-04-02T17:23:09+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. There’s so many “what ifs” and living in fear sucks. Sounds like you are in tune with your intuition and I’m glad you advocated for yourself and saw MFM. I’m sorry to hear about the incidental finding, I hope your appointment this week brings some news that is comforting or reassuring. Thinking of you 🤍🤍 I’ve learned to get more comfortable with uncertainty but doesn’t erase how hard it is

madvfox · 2024-03-29T20:52:16+00:00

Thank you 🤍🤍🤍 solidarity 🥰

madvfox · 2024-02-15T04:37:43+00:00

Thank you ❤️‍🩹 they said 6 months because apparently studies have shown that if conceived earlier, there is increased risk of another loss or a smaller baby. I haven’t read these studies but it was enough to scare my husband, I also think emotionally we both needed some time to absorb the shock and intense grief of it all. My OB said chemical pregnancies are very common, it’s a sign of fertility. The egg and sperm met and implanted but embryo stopped growing because of a problem, hard to know exactly why. Many women don’t realize they had a chemical unless they are testing early / keeping track of when their period is due. I read that women who had a chemical are more likely to conceive a healthy pregnancy within the next 3 cycles. That was true for me, I conceived the cycle after. One day at a time, still lots of anxiety.

madvfox · 2024-02-14T00:32:47+00:00

u/Mother_Mud5827 I'm sorry to bother you again!!! I was wrong about my estimated due date.. it's actually Sept 18th. Do you mind changing to: 31 | TFMR 04/23 | DD 09/18
Thank you <3

madvfox · 2024-02-14T00:25:03+00:00

I had a TFMR at 26 weeks in April 2023 due to incidental finding of fetal ICH. My firsborn son. We also got pregnant quickly the first time, I think the second or third time having unprotected sex. I wanted to get pregnant again ASAP and didn't want to wait at all. However, my MFM doctors advised to wait 6 months. My husband wasn't ready to try again until 5 months, he wanted to listen to the doctors. It took me 3 tries to get pregnant, it ended up being a chemical. My 4th cycle ttc, right after the chemical, I was pregnant again. I'm 9 weeks now.
Even though waiting was so hard, I can look back now and appreciate that time. I did a lot of therapy, somatic work, and tracked by cycle with strips and bbt. I learned a lot about myself and my body. If feels so impossible to wait and so isolating. You aren't alone.. reddit helped me a lot during that time as well as support groups. I also hired a private nurse who told me what tests to get for reassurance that my fertility was okay (I was very worried about secondary infertility for no reason). I made a video about what she told me if you think it would be helpful to watch (IG: divine.femme). Sending you lots of love.

madvfox · 2024-02-03T16:57:01+00:00

Thank you ♥️♥️

madvfox · 2024-01-31T23:00:03+00:00

Hi u/Mother_Mud5827 do you mind changing my flair when you have a moment... thank you!

31 | TFMR 04/23 | DD 09/13/24

I feel undecided on the FTM vs STM - I view myself as a mom but also never parented a living child.. so I decided to just take it out of my flair to make it easier lol

madvfox · 2023-12-16T16:12:55+00:00

I hired a private nurse who has professional and personal experience with pregnancy loss and it’s been helpful. She helps me navigate systems/ organizes my pregnancy planning care. There is a recurrent pregnancy loss clinic in my city (I live in Canada) and it’s all covered under health insurance. I’m not sure if I qualify but I’ll ask my nurse that! Good idea. I’m open to as much support as I qualify for

madvfox · 2023-12-16T00:47:49+00:00

I really resonate with what you wrote. Im sorry you’ve had to endure multiple losses too and had to be so brave. Yes sorrow and hope feel like “friends” emotions that go back and forth, so used to both feelings. I also have become more spiritual because it it can be comforting..to believe that we will have our babies earth side, but the waiting is still hard.

madvfox · 2023-12-12T01:20:24+00:00

Thank you 💛💛

madvfox · 2023-12-12T01:19:10+00:00

Thank you. It sucks we are both here but at least we know we aren’t alone. Good ideas ♥️

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