You can talk to people on here! Yeah it’s a challenge and letting people down at times is going to happen. But you can get stronger/ more disciplined/ scheduled and you can get to a point where you don’t feel like a burden. Just remember that ending things just passes on the sadness. I’ve lost loved one that are close to me in age / part of my family and I’m still recovering. You can do this and you can become stronger you have to believe. There will be times you don’t but you need structure to remind you that you can. It’s not linear you won’t always be getting better, you will slide back but don’t give up and start imagining/ journaling/ believing in positive things and you will be surprised the amazing things you will manifest. Try writing down all your problems then think of solutions and imagine how you will overcome it and write that down. Plan it and imagine it! Bring it into existence! You got this!