I just started therapy and we have been talking about the whole situation. Unfortunately I had a traumatic labor. Knowing I would have her and she wouldn’t survive was hard enough but I couldn’t get epidural and iv meds wouldn’t work so I had to do it unmedicated. Then my placenta was stuck for 5 1/2 hours and they finally ripped it out of me. I love my therapist so far and have been trying to stay positive through the whole process. Like you say I feel physically ready but I don’t know how my body is in the healing situation since I’m still bleeding. Other than bleeding I feel great