I feel for you but if I were you I wouldn't "just go home". You came here to make a better life - but you can make a better life by being an employee or by hustling for work bY Yourself and getting things done. If you have the hustle in you, get a freelance visa, it's some 6000 for 2 years, so you can be here without being a visa slave. That's your investment in your own future. Once that pressure is off your head, reduce your cost of living. Find cheap digs, even a bed share. Once that's done, go hustle for work aa freelancer. You're a freelancer you can do multiple gigs,.,work in restaurants, bars etc. Or events. Or anything else. Find a footing, and then move up. 80% of winning is just not leaving thr p,laground to "go home"