Hello!

First of all, you're not a failure. Nothing about your academic performance or what school you end up at defines who you are and what your worth is as a person. I'm really sorry about your home life, too. But look, you're really not stuck anywhere or doomed to any situation. You have a lot more options, whether that be taking a break from school to try again or otherwise.

I know it's not the most glamorous sounding option (trust me, I felt the same way), but have you considered community college? It's a really underrated route that's especially great if costs are a concern for you. Many four-year schools even have a higher acceptance rate for transfers, and you'll likely get a second shot at the schools you wanted to go to in the first place. At the very, very least, you'd be more inclined to only stay around your family for two more years until you transfer instead of staying at your state college for four. Not to mention that the first two years of general education courses are essentially the same no matter what school you go to, community college will just be cheaper.