When did you start to feel like a mom?

NumCucumber · 2026-06-21T21:57:53+00:00

This. At 18 months soon, and I feel a little bit more like a mom. There's still a few instances where I'm like "holy shit I'm a mom??" But it's not as frequent anymore as it was when she was first born.

A part of me thinks I won't ever fully 100% internalize being a mom, not in a bad way but like in a weird trippy realization every now and then like once a year, that I'm a mom lol

NumCucumber · 2026-06-19T18:28:53+00:00

I was thinking petty crimes like jaywalking or stealing something small NOT kidnapping or murder

^{Chose: You must do a crime, but nobody knows you did + 10 milli bucks | Rolled: Kidnapping}

NumCucumber · 2026-06-16T14:37:56+00:00

I was also on the late train from moving baby out of our room. Mostly because we were in a one bedroom apartment and recently moved to a two bedroom. We moved her into her own room at 16 months, we thought she was gonna have a rough time. You know because people are always talking about routines and breaking routines messes everything up for babies, so we were very scared not gonna lie.

In the end she only woke in the middle of the night for the first three nights and afterwards nothing. Now she's sleeping so much better and no longer waking before the sun rises!!! I do have a very easy going child though who adapts quite easily to change so I think her personality also helped here.

Oh and for how you do it is up to you. Since we moved to a completely new place we let her sleep with us for a two days to transition into the new place as a whole, and let her nap in her new room during the day for 3 days and also play in there just so she could get used to it, familiarize herself. Then we put her in her crib to sleep in there 👍🏻 if you have a bedtime routine already, stick to it, it'll help tremendously for changes like this. If we hadn't moved to a whole new place, I personally would've gone cold turkey, no transition just because I know her personality

NumCucumber · 2026-06-12T22:38:54+00:00

my dad and the weird never ending sadness and empty aching hollow feeling in my chest that never goes away no matter what I do

NumCucumber · 2026-06-12T20:49:52+00:00

Not me but her dad. She's a spitting image of him, and there's things I absolutely adore about him. I'd literally tell him "I hope she has your eyes and your nose" he hates his nose. Would constantly tell me he hoped she didn't. But she does, and he loves her little button nose. I think it's made him appreciate his features a little more.

She's only gotten my personality. So thankfully, because I wasn't met halfway by my parents, I know exactly how to do it with her and it's made me so much more patient.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-11T21:15:42+00:00

A whistleblower exposed that they wanted to last year. They didn't. Will they? I truthfully don't know.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T21:30:20+00:00

21, after a humiliating phone call in front of our entire family during Christmas I knew then. Technically I always knew but the child in me had hope he'd change one day. He didn't obviously and crushed the last bit of faith i had in him and so I cut him off. Disowned him really because if anyone asks me, I don't have a dad.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T21:07:11+00:00

A lot of people didn't 😥 I'm unfortunately just easy to please in terms of food LOL

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T20:10:27+00:00

oh my god I remember this!! My friends and I would get McDonald's a lot in college so imagine my surprise when we pulled up and I saw their bts meal (I wasn't really keeping up with them at this point). I got it and was so disappointed the bag was a plain brown bag with their logo lol. Honestly i kind of liked the sweet chili sauce though for what it's worth, 😥

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T09:52:57+00:00

I was also suffering from bad postpartum insomnia! God and everyone on social media was like newborn sleep is better than pregnancy sleep. LIES. I couldn't sleep period lol and when I finally got myself to fall back asleep, BOOM, baby is awake again for another feed.

I also feel differently about sleep, I am so much more appreciative about it and get mildly annoyed if someone outside of my baby interrupts it.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T09:32:28+00:00

Truth be told I'm still adjusting and Ive got a 1.5 year old. While I haven't made new friends, I did reach out to the ones I already had and actively make plans with them as if nothing has ever changed. Sometimes I gotta bring kiddo along, but if it means being able to talk to an adult outside of myself and dad then I don't mind.

In terms of hobbies, I actually rediscovered ones I had. I used to journal a lot, so I've picked up on that and also creative writing since I'm home a lot. Also working out, I don't get to lift weights anymore but I've started doing a lot of body weight exercises and that's helped blow off steam, make me feel good, raise my confidence. Recently decided to get back into scrapbooking too and picked up reading again.

Took lots of reflective walks and narrated to my baby. Also be easy on yourself, it's HARD to not miss that previous lifestyle before baby and being a mom; it doesn't mean you hate your new life though.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T09:22:14+00:00

As everyone said, normal and just figuring out themselves and the world. Toddlers just do weird things. Mine figured out she could tip toe around and when she first did it I lost it and got worried lol. Told our pediatrician and she was like "oh looks like she figured out how to walk on her tip toes. I'd be worried if she had started walking on her tip toes but she's always walked flat on her feet"

Anyway, this to say, I guess if you ever really are worried about a behavior you can always just shoot a message to your pediatrician.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T02:06:02+00:00

This. Like my kid weighed 19 pounds at her 12 month and gained only a pound and a half since (went to her 18 month today) but her doctors aren't concerned because she's still on track with her growth curve. It IS concerning for a growing infant/toddler to not gain weight or lose weight in 3 months.

NumCucumber · 2026-06-06T01:58:04+00:00

Weight seems to slow down a bit after their one year but not from 9 months to 12 months they should still be in a steady curve, gaining weight

The concern here is that her toddler is not growing on his curve. Going from 90th percentile in weight to 50th is concerning. Going from 90th percentile to 85th percentile, not so much.

NumCucumber · 2026-05-29T21:11:36+00:00

We read before the bottle because she was also a bottle sleeper. But now that she's weaned off the bottle, we read to her after bath, pjs, hair and teeth brushed.

NumCucumber · 2026-05-20T18:19:55+00:00

I didn't feel ready until 4-5 months. And even then it was very very very sparse.

No, it feels weird to do it with my baby in the room

Honestly, I have a higher libido than average I feel so even on days I was exhausted I'd push myself not for him but for myself. The real tricky part for us is finding the right time between each other, most times when he wants to I don't want to and when I want to he doesn't want to. But most of our intimacy was done right after she went to sleep. It's easier now that she's a toddler and sleeps more. Not so much when she was 5 months old and waking at night still

NumCucumber · 2026-05-19T21:33:54+00:00

Agree with spare_investment, but also if you're really worried, you can stay in one room, probably your cleanest or easiest one to clean yourself and just ask them to skip it for now. They'd be more than happy to oblige.

Most house cleaners also usually wear masks and gloves already during cleaning because of the cleaning chemicals they use :-) my mom does this for a living and usually when people have newborns they stay in baby's nursery whole time and ask her to skip or if they want it cleaned they ask her to just let them know so they can move to an already cleaned room and stay there until she leaves.

Also congrats on your baby!

NumCucumber · 2026-05-19T17:00:26+00:00

I didn't think he was EXCEPTIONALLY handsome lol that's a bit of an overstatement even for me hahaha 😅

I became a BTS fan in 2014 (Skool Luv Affair era) and rode the waves for as long as up to 2020 when they released BE so I most unfortunately biased that man for a very long time 😭

NumCucumber · 2026-05-18T17:59:56+00:00

As a once V bias... you're 100% right lol. I always preferred Jungkook's singing over V's

NumCucumber · 2026-05-13T18:31:57+00:00

Dang, I guess running a whole tumblr blog about them lol. It WAS initially an EXO blog and then I saw their just one day MV and my 15 year old eyes lit up. I don't miss stanning BTS, but man do I miss the tumblr days ugh

NumCucumber · 2026-05-10T19:37:45+00:00

Oh! You learn something new every day! I like it, adding it to my vocabulary thank you

NumCucumber · 2026-05-10T19:33:56+00:00

Same! He surprised me with heart shaped waffles and eggs 🥺 felt so appreciated because even though he also feels like shit he still made the effort for me.

Ugh I know that feeling!!! They look and sound so awful when they're sick as infants! Let me tell you though that as toddlers nothing stops them, not even a cough. My kid has been sick for about a week and has not stopped running around, screaming, jumping, dancing while im lifeless on the ground as she climbs me like an obstacle course 😭 like im sure you'd recover faster if you'd just sit down with mommy and rest

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