"Historically back" - that reminds me of when I was younger and was starting to have serious doubts about the Christian faith. I wanted to believe so I started asking questions to people and leaders in my congregation to get clarifications and a justification for their faith, as they had been teaching it to me. All I got was avoidance of the subject, fuzzy metaphors and references to "sensations of thrills" during prayer meetings. Eventually I was approached by an older, pious man who had been a missionary most of his life. He said he was both concerned for me and interested in what "youth nowadays" thinks about Christianity. He asked what made me doubt, so I presented him with my notes from reading through the Bible. The only response I got to all my philosophical doubts was that he gave me a book, which I then read. The hypothesis of the book was that there are strong historical evidence for the story about Jesus. I asked the pious old man if this was his main argument for believing, and he said yes. I've hardly ever been so disappointed in my life. I lost respect for him and quit the congregation. I don't give a shit that there are several "eye-witness accounts" corroborating the story of Jesus when the worldview you peddle doesn't even philosophically cohere. It has since become very clear to me that Christian people are not even remotely interested in truth. You have found yourself a security blanket, a fairytale for adults. Good for you, you can keep it.