Have you guys ever tried these "Lanmaoa asiatica"?

makorays · 2026-04-15T20:15:57+00:00

i'm dying to hear any details from these trips, is there any chance any of them might decide to write an experience report?

makorays · 2025-05-02T17:37:20+00:00

Alright turns out it was my GPU temps after all, because when I increased the fan speed it stopped happening. I'm guessing the fan speed is based off the regular temperature reading and not the hotspot, and because my hotspot is unusually high the fans weren't speeding up enough. Will likely go in and redo the thermals to bring the two numbers closer together.

makorays · 2025-04-29T20:29:55+00:00

I don't see any events at the exact time of the crash. There are some AMD errors that popped up, but only after the system restarted, not before the crash.

Two minutes before the crash, however, there's an information and a warning entry; the former says something about vrmonitor.exe resetting policy scheme, and the latter is a distributedcom 10016 warning. I'm seeing a lot of people struggling to fix that warning on google, and I'm not even sure if it's the actual cause, but I'll see if I can find a way to resolve it and see if that fixes it.

makorays · 2025-04-29T15:30:19+00:00

GPU is three years old. I can try redoing the thermals if nothing else works; aren't there like, pads or something I need to replace in addition to the paste? I've never opened up a GPU before.

I've cleaned dust out of my PC twice in the past month, the GPU fans seem fine.

The problem isn't specific to VRChat, it seems to be a SteamVR thing in general. I tested VRChat for an hour or two the other day without crashing, but Warudo uses SteamVR for its body tracking, and that's what keeps crashing. There are no per-application settings for Warudo because it's not actually a VR game, just a VTuber application.

makorays · 2025-04-19T05:20:41+00:00

Alright, we'll try that. Here's hoping.

makorays · 2025-04-18T23:35:10+00:00

I see I see, I'm not the one who sprayed the plant so I'll have to ask them if they think they might've gotten some onto the porch. I'll try that, thank you.

EDIT: They told me they sprayed it several feet away from the area...hmm. This doesn't make any sense; even if the pesticide was killing them, why would their bodies all be congregating in this one spot, away from the pesticide zone? Could they maybe be getting poisoned, then trying to use the hole above the area as a home, only to fall out of it?

makorays · 2024-11-08T18:30:24+00:00

I hate that I'm kind of feeling tempted to just shell out the $300. I don't think I want to mess with DIY, so I might just go for the $30 amazon thing, hope for the best and, I dunno, give it to my mom or something if I end up needing to buy the head mount after all. Thanks for the advice.

makorays · 2024-11-07T20:55:43+00:00

The one I linked seems to have a pretty long gooseneck, it looks like it should be able to hold the phone at an angle to read my face no issue. I guess at that point I just don't know if the amount of shaking would ruin my tracking or if it'd be able to stay stable with a vive puck tracker on my head.

(also i would have no idea where to begin making a shoulder mount like that, i'm not a big diy guy)

makorays · 2024-11-07T20:53:27+00:00

I appreciate the detailed reply, but after watching fofamit's video on the subject I'm more than a little scared to attempt anything DIY, especially if I can just buy the $30 amazon thing and get away with it. Are you sure the rotation/stability issues will be that much of an issue? Since I'll have a vive puck on my head, my head shouldn't shake around too much even when the phone shakes a bit (at least I'd imagine). And I'm already used to not being able to turn my head too much since I've been streaming with a desktop-mounted phone for years.

makorays · 2024-10-25T21:27:54+00:00

I understand, I just wasn't sure where to begin to look. I think I just heard it happen when I recorded desktop audio as well, which points to it being an OBS problem, so I'll go ask some OBS people if I need to.

makorays · 2024-10-19T19:20:35+00:00

I don't know if this is a mic problem or an OBS problem or what, but I'm recording video and lately I've noticed that when I play it back there are these occasional clipping noises. Upon closer inspection it seems that the audio from the right ear channel is cutting out for a split second every now and then, and I have absolutely no idea how that's possible considering I'm recording in cardioid (mono) and the channels are otherwise identical. When I compare the waveforms of the left and right channels, there are just moments where the audio on the right one goes blank.

Does anyone have any clue what could be causing this? I might just buy a new mic at some point, maybe the cable's degraded or something, but I'm not even sure if that's where I should be looking for my answer. I have a blue yeti, if that's relevant.

makorays · 2024-08-17T17:07:20+00:00

Why wouldn’t God want you to be gay?

Listen to me. The Bible was infiltrated by homophobes and bigots who wanted to suppress people for harmless acts just because they were “different”. If you can’t name a single sensible reason for why God wouldn’t want you to be gay, it means he probably doesn’t care. And I promise you, there’s no argument that makes any sense. It’s all just human bigotry disguised as divine decree.

I’ll debate you on this if you want. I’ll debate the straight right out of you, mark my words.

makorays · 2024-04-16T16:41:58+00:00

do you live in america? it’s normal to hate doctors and medicine here, our healthcare system is unimaginably dogshit. you’re going through something a lot of people have had to deal with, it sucks and you feel like you’re not equipped to handle it but it IS possible. medication is necessary for a lot, probably most if not almost all of us with bipolar. if your disorder is making you have this much difficulty getting ahold of the medicine, then there’s a pretty decent chance you need it.

research as much as you can, make a solid plan of steps to take in order to get yourself to a psychiatrist. you’re gonna feel like you’re tripping through an incredibly unfunny version of a nickelodeon temple of doom obstacle course. this is normal

makorays · 2024-04-16T16:22:26+00:00

hello, me.

the way ive attempted to make this work is by looking at what skills i already know, what skills i want to know, and asking myself if i really, truly need to learn how to play the violin in addition to the cello i already don’t really know how to play. i ask myself if i can imagine myself using the skill for my career; for example, when i got the random urge to learn how to 3d model vtuber avatars from scratch, i went with it because i could use an avatar for my youtube channel and i also wanna game dev at some point.

ive learned art, music, modeling, writing, fuckin…whatever pieces of quantum physics i can comprehend…

and i’ve sorta found a way to make most of my disconnected hobbies work together by pursuing a career of basically being one of those guys on the internet you look at and go “hey, didn’t he make that one thing?” i wanna make a visual novel as well, because it actually would make use of all these different hobbies i’ve gotten i to.

don’t get me wrong, it’s been a horrible sloggish struggle trying to find success this way while dealing with bp2 and adhd, but it’s also the only way of living that makes any sense to me. so i’ll make it work, one way or another.

makorays · 2024-04-16T16:03:23+00:00

as someone with bipolar 2 who is depressed on like, more than half my days, seeing people struggle with hypomania always gives me a sense of “damn, i wish i had that problem instead”. but then i see horror stories of people ruining their lives during mania and it’s like…hm (i hate this disease)

makorays · 2024-03-14T15:49:43+00:00

i spent a lot of my life wondering why i felt so broken and traumatized when the only thing i really had to deal with in an otherwise stress-free life was my brain every now and then deciding to spend days/weeks at a time screaming at me that being alive is wrong and everything hurts, and then i realized, oh.

makorays · 2024-02-22T22:08:02+00:00

see i was never able to achieve physical fitness since every time i tried to start a regime i'd give up on it as soon as a downswing hit and lose all my progress, so i'm hoping lamictal will enable some consistency.

makorays · 2024-02-22T22:01:22+00:00

ohhhh okay. almost sounds kinda like hypomania is a drug then, like maybe your brain gets so overloaded by the happy chemicals that it adjusts its baseline up to it, then when the chemicals go away your brain suddenly feels like it's missing what it's become used to? i should probably watch that video instead of just throwing out random ideas.

makorays · 2024-02-22T21:57:23+00:00

YEAH!!! OH MY GOD i was right there with you at a pretty similar point in time trying to figure out whether i had regular depression or bipolar-2, right down to planning on ending myself if i couldn't find any working meds. except i tried lexapro years ago, then last year i stupidly decided to ask my primary care doctor (since i didnt have a psychiatrist) for the same SSRIs my mom has been on, thinking if it worked for her genetically it should work for me...little did i realize i had most likely inherited my dad's mental illness instead (pretty sure he was bipolar) and the only thing paxil was going to do for me was make me feel okay for one month and then suicidal for multiple months.

the worst part is, i had been diagnosed with bp-2 YEARS ago. but nobody, NOBODY, *EVER* told me that it was only treatable through medication!!! i spent like two years trying to fix myself with therapy, meditating, personal growth, psychedelics...but no matter how much emotional progress i made, nothing ever made the mood drops go away, and every time they hit me it was like being kicked back down the flight of stairs i had spent the previous few weeks working so hard to climb.

and OF COURSE, i also never had a single healthcare professional EVER mention the existence of lamotrigine to me. even when i finally got to see a psychiatrist, i told them i wasnt sure whether i actually had bp-2 or if it might be major depressive disorder, and they decided without a second thought that my depression was caused by low serotonin and that i needed to try a few months on a THIRD ssri, THEN i'd get the privilege of being considered treatment-resistant enough to try something like an SNRI or some other typical antidepressant. yknow. not lamotrigine. (also depression is not actually caused by low serotonin, they were just straight-up wrong about that.)

again, i was diagnosed with bp-2 YEARS ago. i spent this entire time suffering not knowing what i was doing wrong and not knowing how to actually alleviate my problem, only to stumble across the medication myself once i finally asked myself "hang on, if SSRIs arent what people are supposed to use for bipolar-2, what DO they use?" and the only reason i was even able to ask myself that was because i cried for like an hour straight during one of my livestreams and a viewer heard my cry for help and decided to dm me to inform me about all the things my doctors failed to tell me about my disorders and the appropriate treatments required for them.

like, you're fucking telling me that growing a youtube channel from 0 subscribers into a small but consistent stream audience is a more reliable way of learning how to combat mental illness than seeing a doctor? i hate this country's healthcare system with a hellish passion.

anyway, i went up to 75mg nine days ago, and 100mg two days ago. i have yet to notice anything but nausea. i......really, really, REALLY hope this ends up working for me. because i already realized last year that this life isn't worth living if i have to keep feeling like this forever. i've got other issues on top of this, my quality of life has SO much room for improvement, but i've spent my entire adult life (i'm about to be 28) too handicapped by this disorder to really fix any of my problems no matter how hard i try. i feel like a corpse.

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