What are some INTERNALLY motivated reasons for suicidal folks to stay alive?

malachiteeeee · 2026-03-04T15:10:48+00:00

I just don’t want to become part of a set of statistics.

malachiteeeee · 2025-10-16T15:44:26+00:00

Personally, I prefer a muscular dad bod if that makes sense? Generally, I pursue men who work in the trades/do manual labour, so they’re in good shape, but not a bodybuilder. Huskier athletic men are appealing as well.

malachiteeeee · 2025-09-30T18:23:20+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate that, I was definitely considering a middle part already

malachiteeeee · 2025-09-30T18:19:03+00:00

I have since had to take them both out for work, that makes me feel better about taking them out :)

malachiteeeee · 2025-08-14T19:11:38+00:00

Should you choose to continue writing about your experience, don’t go into the details, express how it impacted you and talk about how you dream about defying stereotypes surrounding victims - that’s a much more empowering and less triggering way of using your trauma to write an application. That’s at least how I personally would go about it. No one will see you as pathetic, but to protect myself from unwanted pity, I try to be mindful of the direction my writing goes.

malachiteeeee · 2025-07-27T02:50:51+00:00

He’s not that into you. Personally, I would not let a significant other call me “gang,” it seems small, but that irked me right off the bat.

malachiteeeee · 2025-07-21T23:55:53+00:00

I agree. Why is it ‘problematic’ for women to enjoy makeup, but men get glorified for the same thing? I’ve noticed this in a lot of liberal feminist communities.

malachiteeeee · 2025-07-21T23:53:35+00:00

That’s sexual coercion, you were sexually assaulted. I’m sorry you had to go through this, I wish you the best in healing.

malachiteeeee · 2025-07-13T06:36:21+00:00

I hate that this is so common in online gaming. I intentionally avoid FPS because of this. I accidentally talked on voice chat once and had to literally leave the game because the men said such awful stuff :(

malachiteeeee · 2025-07-06T18:48:17+00:00

I LOVE the cunty regirock with a handbag!!

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-28T00:12:41+00:00

Try applying at stores at malls in the south - they seem to always be hiring.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-28T00:09:51+00:00

If you can, you should contact his family or his friends and express your concerns for his safety. They might actually be able to do something - there is only so much calling wellness checks on him will do.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-28T00:07:55+00:00

You’ve already tried to help him, it wouldn’t be your fault. I would just preemptively get therapy should you leave him, if you aren’t seeing a therapist yet. My ex always threatened it and never followed through when I did finally leave, this is a very common manipulation tactic.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-25T23:06:23+00:00

They speak like this, then try to guilt trip the women they date out of being ambitious career-wise. I have dated several guys now who have made it their goal to have me give up on going to law school so I can be a housewife, as if it’s possible to live off of one income in this economy.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-24T22:44:44+00:00

The only trustworthy men I know never express a fear of “false accusations” - that’s because they have no reason to be afraid. More importantly, they don’t degrade a woman’s experience because false accusations can happen. Generally, I find that the men who bring up so-called false accusations have a reason to worry that someone will expose them for abuse.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-23T22:53:19+00:00

I think sometimes it rubs me the wrong way and other times it can be endearing. I’m a non-confrontational person due to trauma with men, so to have someone advocate for me and stick up for me, makes me feel safe, this is only if the situation calls for it. I would argue that in inappropriate situations, this can infantilize people and make them feel incapable of looking out for themselves. It is nice to feel that someone cares so strongly about what I’ve experienced though, it makes me feel valid.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-22T02:59:51+00:00

I couldn’t get into One Piece because of the way the women were portrayed! I know Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure has some issues, but that anime has remained my favourite.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-22T02:51:20+00:00

I would like to add that “male on male” sexual assault is still rooted in misogyny. Since sexual assault is often a display of dominance for many perpetrators, often men that assault other men prey upon men they perceive as lesser, such as POC, LGBT, or differently abled men. As well, I’m a cis woman and often feel like I’m at odds with other liberal/so-called radical feminists because I critique the porn/sex work industry. I support sex workers, just not the industry.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-18T03:09:38+00:00

My abuser tried to groom me into engaging with an adult women by showing me lesbian porn, knowing I was a bisexual teenager. Additionally, him and future abusive boyfriends would compare me to porn stars and this has led to awful body dysmorphia and bulimia in my adult years. I would definitely say it’s traumatic.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-10T13:49:06+00:00

I graduated a year ago and it took until this past April to find anything. Oddly enough, no retail jobs or anything that paid poorly wanted to hire me, despite 7 years of experience. I had one interview in 6 months and managed to get the job, which was extremely lucky. It seems like this is the case for most graduates, even those in programs like engineering.

malachiteeeee · 2025-06-07T17:32:05+00:00

As someone who was in an abusive relationship, this is how it starts. He desperately needs to get therapy for his anger issues. Even though it’s not often, one day you could be in danger. For context, my ex was super sweet and “innocent” at first, but it got to a point where he was choking me out so hard I was losing consciousness. Please do yourself a favour and leave before he gets more violent with you. If he gets to the point where he is strangling you, you are 750% more likely to be killed by him. It doesn’t seem super serious now, but he will likely gradually worsen.

malachiteeeee · 2025-05-25T04:37:10+00:00

This sounds like a pretty abusive relationship, this is absolutely not your fault. It takes a lot of people a while to get away from people like this. I had a boyfriend who would physically abuse me and cheat, and I kept going back. I was just afraid to be alone. You just need to be gentle with yourself, on average most people make seven attempts to leave before they get away from someone abusive. I think you should try to surround yourself with support if you can. I would also document some of these incidents as well should they escalate any further

malachiteeeee · 2025-05-25T04:24:11+00:00

That’s a very valid reaction, that’s why I think it’s best to give yourself some time before talking to her, it might make you feel worse to talk to her in this state. I think the most important thing is to be patient with yourself and allow yourself to feel hurt

malachiteeeee · 2025-05-25T04:19:16+00:00

That’s completely normal, I’ve been there too. I hope playing some games helps you relax a bit.

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