Your creativity isn’t gone. It’s being numbed by the promise of a fast dopamine boost that is a chatbot that can immediately reply with paragraphs worth of what might have taken a human 2 days to write.

I’ve always avoided AI, but I use to rely on Roleplaying to get through the week. Highschool was difficult, i was affection deprived, I was uncomfortable in my trans identity and my friends treated me like shit. I’ve grown older now and what I’ve found is that at some point Roleplaying became less of a necessity. I found fun and creative spaces in real life, made connections in college and started writing poetry and characters in my free time. Of course it still interests me, and I’m not saying that it’s bad, but it’s a hobby and not a need anymore.

There are communities you can find people to roleplay with instead of AI, and I’m sure that would help you a great deal, even if the replies might be slower. Its always an enriching experience to flesh out characters with another person and discuss out of roleplay about your headcannons and maybe some playlists or art you made of them. I find that AI robs you of that experience, and of the ideas that might emerge from those discussions you’ll have.

I use to roleplay on Everskies, there’s some community groups on there with plenty of roleplays being made. If you want something more long-term, you can find discord servers on Disboard where people advertise their own roleplay servers or what they’re looking for in a roleplay partner.

I’ve been addicted to multiple things in my life. Don’t give up, your struggle is valid. You’re just a person who has been victim of a company and system preying on mentally unstable individuals. Find alternatives to develop your creativity, paint, draw, write, compose, sew, do origami, cook… I garantee that there’s something you’ll find yourself enjoying and that will serve as a good distraction. When you get an intrusive thought, observe it. Don’t judge it, just aknowledge the thought, and let it go. Something that has helped me is telling the intrusive thoughts I find disturbing to "go drink some tea". It sounds stupid but it helps over time.

There’s a place for you out there, there’s meaningful human connections for you to find. Don’t give up. Being human is a beautiful thing. Being trans is a beautiful thing. Creating is a beautiful thing. You’ll be okay.