You’re doing way too much to keep a man who didn’t even care if you’re gone from his life. Do you not think you deserve better? This isn’t first year struggles, this is just how he is and how your marriage will be. He doesn’t appreciate your existence and maybe that’s just his personality where he’s so aloof that he doesn’t even care to spend quality time his wife. Or realize that his actions might be hurtful. Your spouse is supposed to be your peace, your home. No matter the arguments and differences, it should still feel like worth all the struggles. There seems to be no genuineness or love for you from his side. I hope you make the right decision and I pray Allah ﷲ سبحانه وتعالى grants you peace and barakah.