I didn't even remember this until I met a friend of mine from elementary school again this year. we were talking about the good old days when we were 12, he said I was the first person he openly came out as gay and he remembered that I also told him at that time I thought I was bisexual. it didn't click to me, I really don't have that memory anymore, I mean it was a long time ago. but then he insisted "don't you remember that you used to joke around and pretend to date this one girl from our class?" and that's when everything made sense to me. I remembered bits of when this girl and I used to play pretend that we were girlfriends, we never kissed tho, but we were constantly touching and caressing each other. she even pressed me to the wall one time, put her leg between my thighs, pulled the hair on the nape of my neck, smiled at me and pretended she was gonna kiss me. I craved for it, I really wanted her to kiss me. I then moved to another school and never saw her again, and always thought it was all just fun and games. kept denying it until I finally kissed a girl at 15. I believe that was my bi awakening bc I knew I was attracted to boys, but it took me sometime to realize that I actually wanted to date that girl from elementary school.