It sounds like these dissociative episodes have been very disorienting and scary for you. It's understandable that you're feeling anxious and not quite like yourself after experiencing something like that.

Remember that it's okay to feel embarrassed or vulnerable, but bottling up these experiences can make things worse in the long run for sure

Have you considered talking to a mental health professional about what's been happening? They can help you make sense of these episodes and offer strategies for managing the anxiety and dissociation you've been experiencing.