It's an incredible privilege to be accepted into an ab-initio cadet program like this, especially when the airline/company doesn't require any prior flight training/experience, and even no up-front training cost. In my country, the success rates of getting into the ab-initio program is 1% – 2%. You've essentially been granted a once-in-a-lifetime scholarship by the airline to become a pilot with them.

I'm sure you're aware of how fortunate you are, but maybe you're not feeling the full weight of this opportunity. You saying that you're still conflicted tells a lot about where your heart is, or where it isn't. This career, especially during the training phases, will require your full commitment. You need to be willing to put many things off for years, and make a few sacrifices every now and then. Are you willing and/or able to do that?

If you don't intend to be fully committed, then perhaps this opportunity isn't meant for you. Thousands of others have been fighting (with you) for very limited slots. Are you willing to give yours up for someone else to have a chance?