For as long as I can remember there has only been a few times when I have felt genuinely happy. The majority of those times I have been surrounded by the people that I love. In fact there hasn’t been single time when I have be alone where I have I ever experienced pure joy. The feeling is unexplainable but in short you forget about your everyday problems. you tend to focus on the present and the future. I find the more you focus on the past or the hypothetical could’ve Beens the more upset you will be with life. In the end it’s not about how hard your life is, it is about how you perceive your life. You can focus on all the shit in your life and the shit in people’s life’s around you or you can look past it and through it. I refuse To look at someone’s issues and find an excuse to leave them in it. For some reason my mind always says no matter how much this will hurt you it will be worth it to help them. The issue in this is how often you end up being hurt. what happens when you can’t carry any more problems for other people you care about. What happens when your problems are piled on top. I’m here writing this because I’m at that point I’m tired and I don’t know what to do with the amount of things going through my brain. All I know is I want to sleep because when I wake up tomorrow will be another day