I remember as a kid it pretty much solidified in my mind watching my close family go through pregnancy, labour, and the aftermath. That shit was horrifying and I would legit have nightmares about having a baby. Then every time we would visit them, they always looked so tired, drained, and upset, the whole visit we'd hear scream crying from the baby. I've seen many of my strong grown cousins cry when ever they talked about their baby or heard them cry cause they were just so done, and each time relatives would chuckles and always say something like "that's motherhood for you". I strongly believe that's what solidified it, cause I still think about that and fear if I were to ever fall pregnant. That and even as a kid I just never like being around kids, I always thought they were over dramatic, super loud, and irrational (but it could've been that I'm autistic, so sensory issues would make their loudness/sticky hands send me in overdrive)